Initial blog import and minor edits

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content/about.md

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+---
+title: About
+author: mattcen
+type: page
+date: 2016-01-21T06:57:02+00:00
+
+---
+[<img loading="lazy" class="  wp-image-922 alignright" style="outline:1px dashed red;" title="" src="/wp-content/uploads/2018/02/me-large.jpg" alt="me-large" width="293" height="391" srcset="/wp-content/uploads/2018/02/me-large.jpg 768w, /wp-content/uploads/2018/02/me-large-225x300.jpg 225w" sizes="(max-width: 293px) 85vw, 293px" />][1]
+
+Hi! I&#8217;m Matthew Cengia. You can call me Matt, or my online handle, [@mattcen][2].
+
+You now have enough information to stalk me across the web, and find out all about me, but let me save you the trouble.
+
+I&#8217;m a Linux systems administrator and developer, open source software advocate, Open Knowledge Australia ambassador, and scout leader. I&#8217;m also polyamorous and bisexual, and I use he/him/his pronouns. All of the above are important to my identity, and each component may have be the focus of one or more blog posts in future.
+
+For years, I&#8217;ve considered starting a blog. I registered this account in 2012 in preparation for doing so, but I&#8217;m busy, struggled to decide what to,write about, if anything, whether to host it here or elsewhere, and whether it was really worthwhile to myself or anyone else. I&#8217;ve bitten the bullet and decided to give it a shot.
+
+So go forth and have a browse! Hopefully by the time you&#8217;re reading this, I&#8217;ll have had time to publish at least one post. Post frequency may be sporadic, but only time will tell!
+
+ [1]: /wp-content/uploads/2018/02/me-large.jpg ""
+ [2]: https://www.twitter.com/mattcen

content/contact.md

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+---
+title: Contact
+author: mattcen
+type: page
+date: 2016-01-21T08:07:48+00:00
+geo_public:
+  - 0
+  - 0
+  - 0
+
+---
+The ideal way to contact me is probably by my Twitter account, <a href="https://twitter.com/mattcen" target="_blank" rel="noopener">@mattcen</a>, but if that doesn&#8217;t work for you, please feel free to use the form below.
+
+\[contact-form subject='[mattcen%26#039;s mumblings&#8217;\]\[contact-field label=&#8217;Name&#8217; type=&#8217;name&#8217; required=&#8217;1&#8217;/\]\[contact-field label=&#8217;Email&#8217; type=&#8217;email&#8217; required=&#8217;1&#8217;/\]\[contact-field label=&#8217;Website&#8217; type=&#8217;url&#8217;/\]\[contact-field label=&#8217;Comment&#8217; type=&#8217;textarea&#8217; required=&#8217;1&#8217;/\]\[/contact-form\]

content/posts/2012-03-20-upgrading-from-mac-osx-10-6-to-10-7.md

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+---
+title: Upgrading from Mac OSX 10.6 to 10.7
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2012-03-20T10:53:12+00:00
+url: /2012/03/20/upgrading-from-mac-osx-10-6-to-10-7/
+publicize_tumblr_url:
+  - http://.tumblr.com/post/183561807674
+  - http://.tumblr.com/post/183561807674
+  - http://.tumblr.com/post/183561807674
+timeline_notification:
+  - 1552992935
+  - 1552992935
+  - 1552992935
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - foss
+  - software
+  - tech
+
+---
+## Scenario
+
+Over the weekend I decided to upgrade my MacBook from MacOS 10.6 Snow Leapord to MacOS 10.7 Lion, for no particular reason other than “it seemed like a good idea at the time”. I encountered a few minor issues in the process, but it was mostly painless except that my Time Machine backups stopped working. This post details some of the issues I encountered and how I solved them.
+
+## Performing the upgrade
+
+Upgrading to MacOS 10.7 has been made quite easy. If you’re running Snow Leopard, you simply purchase Lion in the App store, and download the installer. Once the 3+ GB installer is downloaded and has begun, you can optionally [burn the image to a DVD or write it to a bootable USB key][1].
+
+Your next step is to actually perform the upgrade, which should be as simple as following the prompts for the installer. This will cause a reboot or two, after which the installation should be complete.
+
+## Fix anything that Lion changed against your will
+
+Lion has some different defaults to Snow Leopard, at least 2 of which I didn’t like. These two were:
+
+  * ### Inverted scrolling
+    
+    Apple, in their infinite wisdom, decided that the scrolling direction when using a trackpad was not good enough, and inverted it. This was a bit of a shock, so I went and inverted it. Depending on your setup, you may need [this link][2], or the [first point in this one][3].
+
+  * ### Remembering window and application state
+    
+    In Lion, unless you specifically tell them otherwise, many applications will remember which windows and files they had open after you quit them, so that it can resume them later when you start it back up again. I didn’t like this behaviour, so I [turned it off][4]. The recommendation is apparently that you _don’t_ do this, but instead [disable it for specific applications][5]… or something.
+
+## Configure Time Machine (again)
+
+For those of you that don’t know, you can use a Linux server as a Time Capsule for Time Machine and therefore store your backups there. This required a bit of configuration for Snow Leopard, but for Lion, there were extra changes that needed to take place for it to work again.
+
+Lion uses a newer version of the Apple File Protocol (AFP), version 2.2, and this hasn’t been packaged for many Linux releases yet, as it’s either deemed unstable, or has been until recently.
+
+I followed [this guide][6] for how to reconfigure my Debian Squeeze server to talk to Lion, but instead of downloading the packages listed on the site, I manually downloaded the source code for Debian Wheezy and compiled it on my server. There’s a bit of information in the above guide’s comments about caveats with this (such as needing to install libacl1-dev on the machine doing the compiling, despite it not being listed as a dependency).
+
+The basic gist of how to get the sources compiled and installed on Debian Squeeze is:
+
+<pre class="wp-block-code"><code> mkdir netatalk
+ cd netatalk
+ wget http://ftp.de.debian.org/debian/pool/main/n/netatalk/netatalk_2.2.1{-1.dsc,.orig.tar.gz,-1.debian.tar.gz}
+ dpkg-source -x netatalk_2.2.1-1.dsc
+ cd netatalk-2.2.1
+ dpkg-buildpackage
+ # At this point you may be notified about unmet dependencies, such as:
+ #   dpkg-checkbuilddeps: Unmet build dependencies: libdb-dev
+ # Install these dependencies, whatever they may be:
+ sudo aptitude install libdb-dev
+ # Then try again
+ dpkg-buildpackage
+ cd ..
+ sudo dpkg -i netatalk_2.2.1-1_i386.deb
+ # Again, at this point there may be complaints about dependencies not
+ # being met by this package. You should be able to resolve these by
+ # choosing one of the resolutions offered by:
+ sudo aptitude install</code></pre>
+
+Now assuming you&#8217;re doing this from scratch, you should be able to basically take the config provided in the guide I linked to without too many requred changes.
+
+I ran into issues because I was using a config file from the older release of AFP, and spend a long time trying to determine why it wasn&#8217;t working before realising that I needed the &#8216;tm&#8217; option in the AppleVolumes.default file to denote that this share is usable by Time Machine. After adding this everything Just Worked.
+
+## Conclusion
+
+So the process was more painful than I expected, and I suspect that if I&#8217;d known I&#8217;d have to jump through the above hoops to try and make the required changes in order to adapt (some of which I did until 3am Saturday night :S), I probably wouldn&#8217;t have bothered forking out the ~$30 it cost for the upgrade, given that so far I&#8217;ve seen very little benefit. Having tackled the problems I considered major now though, hopefully others can benefit from my experience.
+
+ [1]: http://eggfreckles.net/files/burning-a-lion-boot-disc
+ [2]: http://www.ijailbreak.com/how-to/scrolling-is-backwards-in-mac-osx-lion-heres-the-fix/
+ [3]: http://www.hongkiat.com/blog/osx-lion-features-shortcuts/
+ [4]: http://osxdaily.com/2011/07/18/disable-mac-os-x-lion-resume-window-restore/
+ [5]: http://reviews.cnet.com/8301-13727_7-20083707-263/managing-mac-os-x-lions-application-resume-feature/
+ [6]: http://www.mikepalmer.net/build-a-netatalk-time-machine-for-osx-lion-using-debian-6-0-squeeze/

content/posts/2016-01-21-introductions.md

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+---
+title: Introductions
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-01-21T06:13:16+00:00
+url: /2016/01/21/introductions/
+geo_public:
+  - 0
+  - 0
+  - 0
+  - 0
+  - 0
+categories:
+  - Uncategorized
+
+---
+First post!
+
+Hi folks, and welcome to my blog. Please have a look at my [About][1] page to find out who the heck I am, and hopefully that’ll give you some context for what to expect here. Hope to see you back soon!
+
+ [1]: /about

content/posts/2016-01-22-to-blog-or-not-to-blog.md

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+---
+title: To blog, or not to blog
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-01-21T22:45:55+00:00
+url: /2016/01/22/to-blog-or-not-to-blog/
+categories:
+  - Uncategorized
+
+---
+For years, I’ve pondered the idea of starting a blog. It never seemed worthwhile, and there always seemed to be plenty of hurdles.
+
+# Hosting
+
+Where would I host a blog? As a big supporter of data sovereignty and data liberation, I didn’t want to lock myself into a particular service and so considered self-hosting.
+
+On the flip side, as a systems administrator, I didn’t really want go have to deal with the maintenance of yet another service on one of my servers, particularly something like WordPress with I get the impression needs regular updates applied, which aren’t necessarily available in a timely manner from my Linux distribution’s package manager.
+
+Ultimately, after creating a WordPress.com account in 2012 to occasionally contribute to another blog and squat on my username, and subsequently determining that the site has an Export function which returns all content as XML, I decided that was Good Enough(TM) and made my blog publicly viewable and searchable.
+
+# Content and frequency
+
+What do I have to blog about? If what I write is only of interest to me, I may as well keep a private diary. If you look at [my Twitter feed][1], you’ll see a huge percentage of it is retweets of others, rather than original content. Do I really have anything to say?
+
+Of course I do. Despite being busy out and about actually living my life, I still spent significant time reading and forming opinion on topics that are important to me (see [my About page][2]). Occasionally, there’s a topic I feel strongly and educated enough about to weigh in on with my own thoughts. Sometimes I do this on Twitter, however sometimes 140 characters just isn’t sufficient.
+
+Is it worth setting up a blog, though, for the seemingly rare occasions I feel like sharing my opinion with the world? Well given I’m hosting on a managed service, the cost of maintenance is basically zero, so there’s no harm in having a site that is often dormant until I need it, and I have no obligation to set a schedule for how regularly I post content.
+
+That said, I enjoy writing, and if I don’t strive for anything too close to perfection (e.g. in the form of ensuring I know everything about a topic before authoring a post on it), just the fact that I’ve got a space available to share my thoughts may lower the barrier enough that I do so more often than I’d expect.
+
+# Naming
+
+Ah, the all important question. What do I call my blog? I wanted something unique (there are a lot of blogs out there, and many of the names I considered were in use) and memorable, while having a nice ring to it. “mattcen’s mumblings”, which occurred to me the other day, contains a username that is **mostly** only associated with me across the internet, and it alliterates nicely, so it’s as good a name as any.
+
+# Privacy
+
+Privacy is, ironically, the topic that finally made me choose to write a blog post (that’s coming soon), so I won’t go into too much detail here. Suffice to say that, despite my privacy attempts being largely in vain, I am usually quite conscious about what I share on the internet so there’s little reason to share any more information than necessary. Time will tell whether I have any luck retaining any semblance of privacy.
+
+# Conclusion
+
+So I have a blog. It may get lots of updates, or it may not. The posts may or may nor be useful or interesting to anybody. You’re welcome along for the ride to find out!
+
+ [1]: https://twitter.com/mattcen
+ [2]: /about

content/posts/2016-02-24-online-privacy-a-tale-of-irony-and-contradiction.md

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+---
+title: 'Online privacy: a tale of irony and contradiction'
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-02-24T02:15:46+00:00
+url: /2016/02/24/online-privacy-a-tale-of-irony-and-contradiction/
+categories:
+  - privacy
+  - security
+  - software
+  - tech
+
+---
+This is the post that prompted me to start this blog a month ago.
+
+I understand online privacy better than most. Unfortunately, privacy (and security; the two often go hand-in-hand) is often at odds with convenience. I have previously sacrificed convenience over privacy and security in many instances, because the latter two are important to me. Fair warning, this post doesn’t answer how to compromise between the above; it merely highlights my frustrations while trying to do so. Here are some of the more significant attempted compromises I’ve made, and the associated struggles:
+
+### Running free and open source software on my Android phone
+
+I’ve had [Cyanogenmod][1] installed on my phone since shortly after I purchased it. For the past year or two, I’ve had it installed without any of the Google apps, such as the Play store, YouTube, Maps, Hangouts, Google+, and Gmail. Not having the Play store meant not being able to install any of the apps it offered. Instead, I made do with [F-Droid][2], an app catalogue that exclusively contains free and open source apps.
+
+This encumbered my ability to interact with other people, sites, and hardware. I couldn’t use common chat applications, some social media sites were clunky because I was limited to their mobile web page which is often a second-class citizen to their mobile app, and I couldn’t stream to my Chromecast. Eventually, about a month ago, I caved and installer the Google apps, because the disadvantage of missing out finally outweighed the advantage of knowing with reasonable certainty that my location data, contacts, and other private phone information was safe from third parties.
+
+### Facebook
+
+I deleted my Facebook account in 2013 after it insisted on hounding me for personal information regarding my education institutions and place of employment. Initially, it was freeing. I had more time up my sleeve, and knew that even if Facebook didn’t delete the data for my old account, they weren’t getting any new data from me (though possibly from others; see [Shadow profiles][3]).
+
+Again, though a couple of months ago, I’d gotten sick of the disadvantages. I’d occasionally get forgotten by people organizing events, because I wasn’t on Facebook to be invited. Many friends were difficult to get hold of because Facebook was one of their main communication media, and when I met somebody new in person and wanted to keep in touch, the first question I got was “What’s your Facebook”? My social life could be enriched, and so, with significant trepidation, I yet again forfeited my personal information to Facebook and started adding friends.
+
+### Gmail plus-addressing
+
+I try to sign up to different sites with different email addresses (using [Gmail’s plus addressing][4]). This way, if i receive spam to a plus-address, I know which site disclosed that address (this, I admit, has never actually happened).
+
+On January 21, a colleague and I were discussing various web services, and I mentioned that I used Gravatar, which serves up a picture for use as your avatar based on your email addresses, to any website that supports it. My colleague remarked that they were surprised that I, somebody reasonably privacy-conscious, used Gravatar. I considered this briefly. Gravatar works by asking you to supply all your email addresses, and upload one or more pictures, each of which can be associated with one or more email addresses. Then, when you sign up with one of those email addresses to a site that supports Gravatar, the site can send a request to Gravatar which includes your email address, and retrieve a picture that it can then use as your avatar or profile picture.
+
+Gravatar is a free-as-in-beer service. They don’t charge members any money to use the service. Given this, they obviously need to make their money elsewhere, so it’s reasonable to assume they monetise their members, making members the product. Each request that a Gravatar-supporting-site sends to Gravatar likely contains a referrer stating which site made the request. This means that Gravatar could collect a huge database of all the email addresses associated with a member, and all the Gravatar-supporting sites they visit, then sell this information to the highest bidder. Because some of the sites I use plus-addressing on support Gravatar, Gravatar needs to know all thise addresses, making using Gravatar reckless, to say the least, because Gravatar can be used to unify my identities across all sites that support it. I signed up for Gravatar years ago, before I was quite so paranoid, so it hadn’t been subject to my now-more-stringent privacy analysis. Ironically, here I am blogging about Gravatar on a blog hosted by WordPress, who own Gravatar.
+
+### Solutions?
+
+So how does one integrate with society while remaining reasonably private and secure? I’ve no idea, but I’m still looking, despite feeling a bit resigned to the reality that sometimes it’s all too hard.
+
+ [1]: FIXME
+ [2]: https://f-droid.org
+ [3]: http://www.makeuseof.com/tag/facebook-shadow-profiles-you-probably-have-one-too-weekly-facebook-tips
+ [4]: https://support.google.com/mail/answer/12096?hl=en

content/posts/2016-04-22-wasting-privilege.md

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+---
+title: Wasting privilege
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-04-21T14:57:47+00:00
+url: /2016/04/22/wasting-privilege/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - activism
+  - feminism
+  - openness
+  - politics
+  - transparency
+
+---
+I&#8217;m a middle-class, cisgender, white, male living in the 21<sup>st</sup> century. This affords me a non-trivial amount of privilege. I was reminded of this tonight as I had <a href="http://blogs.weta.org/tellyvisions/2015/04/12/call-midwife-series-4-episode-3-recap" target="_blank" rel="noopener">&#8220;Call the Midwife&#8221; S04E03</a> on in the background and I listened to how the English landlords refused lodgings to the Irish, and how homosexuality was treated with oestrogen tablets, with unpleasant side-effects. Despite being a fictional show, I don&#8217;t doubt it reasonably accurately reflects the reality of mid-20<sup>th</sup> century England, and it made me extremely uncomfortable, but also glad that I life in a time and place where I&#8217;m not directly affected by this sort of thing.
+
+I subsequently saw the following:
+
+<div class="embed-twitter">
+  <blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-width="550">
+    <p lang="en" dir="ltr">
+      If you're into hackfests and <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/opendata?src=hash">#opendata</a>, please read this. I'm guilty on most fronts here, so much to think about. <a href="https://t.co/8xS2itFZkc">https://t.co/8xS2itFZkc</a>
+    </p>
+    
+    <p>
+      &mdash; Steve Bennett (@stevage1) <a href="https://twitter.com/stevage1/status/723109587264503810">April 21, 2016</a>
+    </p>
+  </blockquote>
+  
+  <p>
+    </div> 
+    
+    <p>
+      And read Rosie&#8217;s <a href="https://openaus.net.au/blog/2016/04/21/open-government-and-inequality-two-sides-of-the-same-coin/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">blog post</a> in the referenced tweet, which really reinforced my middle-class-ness, hitting particularly close to home because it referenced the GovHack Red Carpet awards in which I was involved last year. Rosie&#8217;s post also references the <a href="http://unemployedworkersunion.com/2016/04/07/34036/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">Australian Unemployed Workers&#8217; Union Conference</a> from Tuesday, one of the sessions of which I caught the tail end of a <a href="https://www.facebook.com/985160954863696/videos/1038656072847517/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">video stream</a> of, and was appalled by the circumstances the speakers have to endure.
+    </p>
+    
+    <p>
+      Having now started to feel bad about the fact that I have spent a significant amount of time <span style="text-decoration:underline;">wasting</span> my privilege  by not using it to help people less fortunate than me, I&#8217;m letting this serve as a reminder that we should be always evaluating where we decide to focus our efforts to maximise value while still bringing us joy and satisfaction.
+    </p>
+    
+    <p>
+      I am passionate about plenty of social justice issues, from queer and trans discrimination, to feminism, to openness and transparency, and I&#8217;m only starting to see the tip of the iceberg on issues of unemployment, poverty, class, and racism. I need to remind myself that I can&#8217;t efficiently give my time to all of these causes, but I can carefully pick my battles, and do my best to make a positive impact, while listening to and amplifying the voices of those I&#8217;m trying to help.
+    </p>

content/posts/2016-09-07-appropriation-of-spoon-theory.md

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+---
+title: Appropriation of “Spoon Theory”
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-09-07T00:49:52+00:00
+url: /2016/09/07/appropriation-of-spoon-theory/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - activism
+  - feminism
+
+---
+In recent times, I’ve occasionally referred to how many “spoons” I have at my disposal. This mostly comes up for me in a context of interacting with other people socially, usually either in the context of going to an event where I’m meeting new people, or having a discussion with people (either in person or online) on something on which we disagree. As an introvert who attempts to avoid or avert conflict, these interactions often require a lot of energy or courage for me to participate, so often I’ll say “I don’t have the spoons for meeting new people today.”
+
+I was recently reflecting on the origin of spoon theory, and went to re-read the <a href="http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">original blog post of the person who coined &#8220;spoons&#8221;</a> as a term. This person has Lupis, and physically can only do a finite number of things in a day, often less than are strictly necessary to live a life equivalent to an abled person.
+
+This made me realise that my use of &#8220;spoons&#8221; isn&#8217;t the same as its original intended purpose, and caused me to reconsider whether using the term was devaluing it for those with disabilities like Lupis. It turns out <a href="http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Spoons#Note_for_abled_allies" target="_blank" rel="noopener">I&#8217;m not the first person to consider this</a>. Geek Feminism wiki says: &#8220;disabled people have asked that **the &#8216;spoons&#8217; terminology not be appropriated by abled people**.&#8221;
+
+OK, so I&#8217;ve learned something new. I will make an effort from here onwards to stop using &#8220;spoons&#8221; to refer to my social anxiety or discomfort, and start hunting for alternative terms I can use. Possibly simply saying I don&#8217;t have the &#8220;energy&#8221; or &#8220;impetus&#8221; is good enough (though I&#8217;m open to suggestions for alternatives).
+
+I hope this post serves to inform others of the potential appropriation of &#8220;spoons,&#8221;, and causes people to question whether the term can rightfully be applied to their situation.
+
+EDIT: I did not write this post to tell people whether or not they are allowed to refer to their &#8220;spoons.&#8221; I leave that up to each individual. The main purpose of this post, I think, is to acknowledge Spoon Theory&#8217;s origins, and be mindful of our use of it, to avoid cheapening its value. There&#8217;s no easy solution, and it&#8217;s not a clear cut case; it&#8217;s just an interesting consideration.

content/posts/2016-09-18-communicating-and-living-authentically.md

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+---
+title: Communicating and living authentically
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-09-18T11:24:49+00:00
+url: /2016/09/18/communicating-and-living-authentically/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - communication
+  - polyamory
+
+---
+_NB: This post is dealing primarily with communicating feelings and emotions with partners/friends etc., rather than communicating/teaching  objective information._
+
+I have difficulties with communication. It’s true of all of us, I think. We sometimes can’t adequately find the language to articulate our thoughts, or, worse, we’re afraid to do so, because we don’t want to admit how we feel (either to ourselves, because it’s too painful to think about, or to others, because we’re not sure how they’ll react or respond).
+
+> Communication tends to be most difficult precisely when it’s most important. […]  
+> “If you’re afraid to say it, that means you need to say it.”
+> 
+> –Franklin Veaux and Eve Rickert, More Than Two, quoting Marcia Baczynksi
+
+The above is a mantra that I attempt to adhere to, but it’s hard. I think it gets less hard, slowly, with practice, but I am not sure if it ever becomes easy. There is, however, often an amazing sense of relief, a weight lifted from your shoulders, after saying something you’ve been afraid to say, regardless of the outcome. Yet, despite knowing, objectively, that it’s better for somebody to accept or reject you for being authentic, than for them to accept an inauthentic representation of yourself, fear of rejection is still a hard hurdle to overcome.
+
+<figure id="attachment_367" aria-describedby="caption-attachment-367" style="width: 550px" class="wp-caption alignnone"><img loading="lazy" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-367" src="/wp-content/uploads/2016/09/mcfly-rejection.jpg" alt="mcfly-rejection.jpg" width="550" height="301" srcset="/wp-content/uploads/2016/09/mcfly-rejection.jpg 550w, /wp-content/uploads/2016/09/mcfly-rejection-300x164.jpg 300w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 85vw, 550px" /><figcaption id="caption-attachment-367" class="wp-caption-text">Pictured: George McFly (Back to the Future) looking horrified. Text: &#8220;I just can&#8217;t take that kind of rejection&#8221;</figcaption></figure>
+
+A big part of my struggle is communicating my wants and needs, and acknowledging that I am _entitled_ to have wants and needs, and that I have a right to _ask_ others for these, just as they have a right to set boundaries around what they are and aren&#8217;t prepared to offer. These wants and needs could be from anything as simple as &#8220;I need hugs&#8221;, to slightly more complicated requests like &#8220;I want to see you more often&#8221;, or &#8220;I would like you to occasionally be available to listen to me vent/rant/mope.&#8221;
+
+These may seem straightforward, but I _really_ hate the thought that I&#8217;m a burden on others, even though if I received such a request myself, I&#8217;d usually be happy to oblige, or respectfully say that I didn&#8217;t feel capable of meeting that need right now, and maybe negotiate something else, all despite the fact that I tend to keep pretty busy. I make time for those I care about, and it shouldn&#8217;t feel greedy or selfish to expect others to do the same for me, but it sometimes does.
+
+This post, and indeed, this blog, is an attempt on my part to live more authentically, by sharing my thoughts, explaining who I am, and how I feel, without necessarily expecting anybody to read or do anything about it. So if you&#8217;re reading this, thanks for taking the time. I welcome constructive feedback, but reserve the right to ignore it.
+
+Anyway, basically, brains are weird, and feels are hard.

content/posts/2016-09-20-do-you-have-a-partner.md

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+---
+title: “Do you have a partner?”
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-09-20T05:54:09+00:00
+url: /2016/09/20/do-you-have-a-partner/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - polyamory
+  - sex
+
+---
+_NB: This post and [Communicating and Living Authentically][1] were my attempts to sort out some thoughts. I don’t think I quite finished sorting them, let alone express them clearly here, but this may still be useful information. It took me 2 days to decide this wasn’t too private to publish._
+
+When somebody asks about “relationship status”, the default interpretation in monogamous, heteronormative society is “do you have a partner?” As someone who practices [polyamory][2], my answer to this question is usually “it’s complicated.” The reality for me is that I perceive lots of different kinds of relationships that are difficult to label. Some approximate labels or descriptions are, in no particular order:
+
+  * Acquaintances (People who I know but don’t really interact with outside the space in which we met, such as those from meetups)
+  * Friends (Best described, I think, as people whose personal lives I actively take an interest in outside the context in which we met. I try to make an effort to check in on these people occasionally to see how they’re doing.)
+  * Close friends (People who I might chat with weekly or more regularly, and who I can usually enjoy simply spending time with, with no expectations of conversation or other forms of entertaining each other.)
+  * Friends with benefits (Friends with whom I have an occasional sexual relationship.) (EDIT 2018-05-07: Since writing this, I’ve realised “Friends with benefits” is a slightly problematic term, because it can imply that “friendship” isn’t sufficiently “beneficial” on its own. One alternative may be “sexy friend.”)
+  * Casual sexual partner (This is a difficult term to find a synonym for, but [Wikisaurus][3] suggests “lover”, among others. I rarely consider this relationship type applicable to me, because in order to be intimately comfortable with someone, I tend to need to build some sort of friendly rapport first, hence “friend with benefits”.)
+  * Romantic relationships (People with whom I feel I have a deep emotional connection and non-[platonic][4] relationship. This is probably the label that most closely approximates the “partner” definition in the original question. “Girlfriend” or “boyfriend” may also be used by the more heteronormative-minded.)
+
+And then there are others, like live-in- and/or life-partners (people with whom one shares things such as a house or other possessions, finances, or children), and play partners (people with whom one has a BDSM-style relationship).
+
+Now here’s the kicker: it’s possible that multiple labels may be applied to the same person. Additionally, some people may not quite fit into any of the above definitions exactly. So, returning to the question “do you have a partner?”… it’s complicated.
+
+Often, the complication is due to the fact that, as a bit of a [relationship anarchist][5], I’ve not necessarily had explicit conversations with people as to how they view our relationship; I just go with the flow, and take things as they come. Many of the above labels come with attached expectations (such as a certain level of time availability or other commitment), and as somebody who has lots of commitments already (e.g. to the multiple volunteer roles I’ve put myself in), and is, quite frankly, not sure of their ability to make too many further commitments, I feel guilty asking the same of others. This basically comes back to communication of wants and needs, like those addressed in [Communicating and Living Authentically][1].
+
+It’s complicated. Words are tricky. Brains are weird. Feels are hard.
+
+ [1]: /communicating-and-living-authentically
+ [2]: https://www.morethantwo.com/polyamory.html
+ [3]: https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Wikisaurus:casual_sexual_partner
+ [4]: https://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/platonic#Adjective
+ [5]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Relationship_anarchy

content/posts/2016-12-31-2016-highlights.md

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+---
+title: 2016 Highlights
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-12-31T01:45:56+00:00
+url: /2016/12/31/2016-highlights/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - Uncategorized
+
+---
+<p class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">2016 was a struggle for many of us, with some pretty unpleasant stuff going on all over the world. To combat the feeling that 2016 was nothing but a huge trash fire, several of my friends have published lists of their 2016 highlights, and reading them really warmed my heart, as I felt so pleased for them having some wonderful experienced (there was much </span><span class="s2">compersion</span><span class="s1"> to be had!). So, in return, here is my list of things that were awesome about 2016. I hope next year is half as </span><span style="line-height:1.7;">amazing!</span>
+</p>
+
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went to the Australian Scout Jamboree 2016 in </span><span class="s2">NSW</span><span class="s1"> with 39 other awesome people for 10 days, and watched kids have awesome fun, and learn and grow as they took care of each other.</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Quit my job, after 7 years, for a proper holiday that didn&#8217;t involve attending conferences or scout events!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went to Linux.</span><span class="s2">conf</span><span class="s1">.au 2016 in Geelong, and ran a one-day Open Knowledge Australia mini-conference. I&#8217;ll get to do this again in 2 weeks&#8217; time in Hobart!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Helped out with the Scouts Victoria </span><span class="s2">Kangaree</span><span class="s1">, getting about 10 hours sleep in 3 days, and generally being amazing. It was really gratifying.</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went to my first festival, </span><span class="s2">Confest</span><span class="s1">, in </span><span class="s2">NSW</span><span class="s1">. It was an amazing week in which I did too much volunteering, had very little mobile reception (which was the best!), and met awesome people!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Saw some awesome shows for the Melbourne International Comedy Festival, including Lisa-Skye&#8217;s &#8220;Spiders Wearing Party Hats,&#8221; which, between </span><span class="s2">MICF</span><span class="s1"> and Fringe, I saw 3 times!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Experienced and participated in my first ever scene at a kink club, expanding my comfort zone. It was a fascinating experience!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Helped set up computers for </span><span class="s2">Popup</span><span class="s1"> Playground&#8217;s Small Time Criminals, which is still running until February, and which you should totally book in if you haven&#8217;t already!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went on my first overseas touring holiday to Europe. This was amazing, three weeks was exactly the right duration, and I absolutely loved it!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Did some awesome and fulfilling work with Invent The World, using </span><span class="s2">Minecraft</span><span class="s1"> and other games to teach kids online empathy, problem solving, teamwork, and keyboard and mouse motor skills. Seeing these kids work together and learn was exhausting, but extremely rewarding, and I really hope to do more of this in the future.</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Planned and ran </span><span class="s2">GovHack</span><span class="s1"> Melbourne 2016, a weekend </span><span class="s2">hackathon</span><span class="s1"> for about 100 people, with an amazing team of volunteers!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Attended my first </span><span class="s2">PyCon</span><span class="s1"> AU in Melbourne, where I went to an education seminar, learned some awesome stuff from some even more awesome friends, new and old!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went to Slut Walk Melbourne for the first time, and marched with hundreds of others against slut shaming and rape culture.</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Attended </span><span class="s2">HealthHack</span><span class="s1"> Melbourne 2016, as a participant, and not a volunteer, for a change, and, with my team, achieved second place for our hack!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Visited Adelaide for the first time, for the </span><span class="s2">GovHack</span><span class="s1"> 2016 National Red Carpet Awards; a beautiful city!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Returned to Wellington, NZ, for yet another amazing </span><span class="s2">KiwiCon</span><span class="s1">, which ran in spite of the earthquake earlier that week!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Presented a talk about getting youth involved in </span><span class="s3">tech</span><span class="s1"> at that fantastic </span><span class="s2">BuzzConf</span><span class="s1"> emerging technology festival in Ballan, Victoria. A delightful, family-oriented feel permeated the event, and I met some of the best people!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Expanded my comfort zone further by attending my first ever gay clubs etc.</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Went to the ever awesome </span><span class="s2">Swingin</span><span class="s1">&#8216; Bella Christmas, and sang and danced to the excellent music they play there every year!</span>
+</li>
+<li class="p1">
+  <span class="s1">Formed new relationships (from friendships to intimate partnerships) with some brilliant folks, while amicably ending some that had run their courses.</span>
+</li>
+
+<span class="s1">The experiences I&#8217;ve had and the people I&#8217;ve met this year have been unforgettable, and I&#8217;ll cherish many of them for years to come. Thank you to all of you who have made my life amazing simply by being a part of it.</span>

content/posts/2016-12-31-book-review-fight-like-a-girl-clementine-ford.md

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+---
+title: 'Book Review: Fight Like A Girl – Clementine Ford'
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2016-12-30T13:16:47+00:00
+url: /2016/12/31/book-review-fight-like-a-girl-clementine-ford/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - feminism
+  - politics
+
+---
+I don’t tend to write book reviews, but this is important. I’m not sure I’ve ever written one before,  so please bear with me.
+
+<figure id="attachment_509" aria-describedby="caption-attachment-509" style="width: 225px" class="wp-caption alignnone"><img loading="lazy" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-509" src="/wp-content/uploads/2016/12/51ldgxoxjfl-_sy346_.jpg" alt="51ldgxoxjfl-_sy346_" width="225" height="346" srcset="/wp-content/uploads/2016/12/51ldgxoxjfl-_sy346_.jpg 225w, /wp-content/uploads/2016/12/51ldgxoxjfl-_sy346_-195x300.jpg 195w" sizes="(max-width: 225px) 85vw, 225px" /><figcaption id="caption-attachment-509" class="wp-caption-text">Book cover: Fight Like A Girl &#8211; Clementine Ford</figcaption></figure>
+
+[Clementine Ford&#8217;s _Fight Like A Girl_][1] is a book about feminism. It&#8217;s about a woman who has battled sexism, body shaming, and abuse all her life, and fighting like a girl who, surviving all this, has come out the other side strong, independent, and not giving a damn what men think.
+
+Clementine talks about the ridiculous, contradictory, and often implicit and unspoken societal expectations of being a woman, the hateful names she&#8217;s called by men, who react with horror when they&#8217;re laughed at in response, as if that is the worst thing that could ever happen to them. She talks about perpetuation of rape culture, and contradictory suggestions regarding how women can avoid being raped, as if it should be their responsibility.
+
+She discusses men&#8217;s assertion that feminists, particularly her, hate men so much, and how they wonder why, as she lists, extensively, the horrendous insults she&#8217;s received from these men online. Several pages of this chapter, _Man-hater_, were such a hard slog I had to put the book aside for a week to avoid just skipping them and denying them the attention they deserve. Men can be unbelievably awful.
+
+Eventually, I made it to the epilogue. For some reason, possibly related to the poetic way it was written, I was compelled to read it aloud, and it literally brought me to tears. I bought the audiobook, just to hear Clementine read this, and it was amazing. The first paragraph does not do it justice:
+
+> <p class="tx1">
+>   This book is a love letter to the girls. It’s a letter to the bitches and the broads, the sluts and the whores. It’s to the troublemakers and the rebels, the women who are told they’re too loud, too proud, too big, too small.
+> </p>
+
+Men, you should read this book. This book is not written for us. We are not its target audience, because if the patriarchy is to be overturned, women can nor depend on men to help, let alone lead the assault. It pulls absolutely no punches while detailing all the ways that patriarchy is perpetuated, how men can be awful, and women are second-class citizens. But this doesn&#8217;t mean we shouldn&#8217;t, at the _very_ least, stay out of the way an not make things worse, and call out bad behaviour when we see it.
+
+This book is eye-opening, and heart-wrenching, and I&#8217;d have it no other way. This book is not written for men, but you should read it anyway.
+
+**Everyone should read this book**.
+
+&#8220;This book is a love letter to the girls.&#8221; And, given everything in the world whose focus is on men, so it fucking should be.
+
+ [1]: https://www.amazon.com.au/Fight-Like-Girl-Clementine-Ford/dp/B01JFFN64M

content/posts/2017-06-11-guys-isnt-gender-neutral.md

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+---
+title: “Guys” isn’t gender neutral
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-06-11T12:30:38+00:00
+url: /2017/06/11/guys-isnt-gender-neutral/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - feminism
+  - politics
+
+---
+_I wrote this post because when I was looking recently, I couldn’t find a good article that communicated this point. Presumably my search-fu wasn’t working that day, because I’ve just found several, which I’ve referenced below._
+
+The word “guys” isn’t gender neutral.
+
+I don’t know many people who use “guy” singular, to refer to somebody who doesn’t identify as male. Yes. I know that progressive, descriptive dictionaries like [Merriam-Webster][1] state that both “guy” and “guys” are gender neutral, while [Oxford][2] still states that the singular form is male.
+
+Yes, I know that many people treat it as gender neutral, even people who don’t identify as male. I am aware of plenty of women who will say “guys” when referring to a mixed-gender group. Some might even use it to refer to a group of all non-male people.
+
+I invite you to consider this, though. Just because _some_, maybe even _many_, people who don’t identify as men consider “guys” to be gender neutral, that doesn’t mean _everyone_ does. What if one person in that target group being referred to as “guys” _does_ consider it to be a gendered term, and as a result, feels othered by your language? What if your language, to that individual (and there may be many of them in any given group), tells them “I assume that this is a male-dominated group and anybody else is an anomaly who isn’t important enough to be recognised or addressed?” There’s a good chance that person isn’t comfortable raising this issue themselves, so you have no way of knowing how many people feel excluded by the word “guys.”
+
+I work in IT. Like many other fields, it’s male-dominated. If we want to diversify our workplaces (and who wouldn’t, given so much evidence that diversity is a Good Thing?), we need to stop using language that _may_ make people feel excluded or uncomfortable. In my opinion, it’s a needless microagression.
+
+So, let’s put aside the argument of whether or not _you_ consider “guys” to be gender neutral, and ask a different question:
+
+**If you knew that your language, this single word, “guys,” was making a person you’re addressing uncomfortable, wouldn’t you want to change it?**
+
+It’s _not_ that hard! there are plenty of alternatives:
+
+  * folks
+  * people
+  * peeps
+  * y’all
+  * everyone
+
+Those are just the few I came up with off the top of my head. I’ve just done a quick search, and found [this blog post][3], which adds, among others:
+
+  * friends
+  * team
+  * pals
+
+(check out that post for more), and that post references [Ways Men In Tech Are Unintentionally Sexist][4], which I’ve only skimmed, but which is an amazing resource and links to heaps of other amazing resources, such as [A Guy Is A Man Is A Guy][5], and [Geek Feminism][6].
+
+If you still would like to be convinced that “guys” isn’t gender neutral, [A Guy Is A Man Is A Guy][5] offers three exemplary thought experiments:
+
+> Thought Experiment #1: Imagine a room full of men and women. Someone stands at the front and says, “I want all the guys to stand up.” What happens next?
+> 
+> Thought Experiment #2: You are with a woman. You tell her you think she’s such a guy, a great guy, the smartest guy you’ve ever known. Note the expression on her face.
+> 
+> Thought Experiment #3: You turn on cable news and the first thing you hear is someone saying, “Everyone knows it’s a guy’s world.” Picture in your mind what he’s trying to say.
+
+I love these examples so much.
+
+Now, back to the matter at hand: changing your language. Yes. It requires time and effort, to stop using “guys” as a collective noun for a group of diverse genders. I have largely settled on “folks” as my replacement word, and I still slip up after at least a year of trying. There are certain situations that I’m so used to saying “guys” in, that I have a lot of unlearning to do. But the important thing is that I’m _trying_, and after just a couple of months of conscious effort, 90% of the time, I was not using a term that some people may find exclusionary.
+
+So pick a new word to replace “guys” in your everyday vocabulary. There are plenty of them. It won’t take all that long to get used to if you keep at it, I promise you, and most people won’t even notice the change.
+
+But for those that do notice, it’ll mean the world to them.
+
+That&#8217;s all, <del>guys</del> folks!
+
+ [1]: https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/guy
+ [2]: https://www.oxfordlearnersdictionaries.com/definition/american_english/guy
+ [3]: http://boredzo.org/blog/archives/2015-06-19/alternatives-to-guys
+ [4]: https://notapattern.net/2014/10/14/ways-men-in-tech-are-unintentionally-sexist/
+ [5]: http://msmagazine.com/blog/2013/09/06/a-guy-is-a-man-is-a-guy/
+ [6]: http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Resources_for_allies

content/posts/2017-06-11-the-pain-of-passwords.md

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+---
+title: The pain of passwords
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-06-11T11:19:55+00:00
+url: /2017/06/11/the-pain-of-passwords/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - privacy
+  - security
+  - software
+  - tech
+
+---
+_This post may get a bit rambly and is kind of self-indulgent, but some might find it an interesting story. There’s a tl;dr at the bottom.  
+_ 
+
+I use a password manager to manage passwords to the majority of services and websites I have accounts with. Most of these sites have unique and complex passwords that I have no hope of remembering. I like it this way.
+
+Password managers can’t help with everything. You still need to remember the password/phrase to unlock the password manager, and the phone and/or computer you access it from. If you host the password manager’s data file on a cloud storage service, like I do, you need to remember your password to log into that too. Further, given that, that in my case, my cloud storage service of choice, ownCloud, is self-hosted, I need to remember _all_ the passwords pertaining to the server that runs that service. This includes local Linux passwords and SSH key passphrases.
+
+Now, sure, I have a copy of the passwords on removable storage somewhere safe so I’m not dependent on all this infrastructure. But guess what? That copy is PGP-encrypted. With a passphrase. That I have to remember.
+
+So let’s recap. The passwords I currently have to remember include:
+
+  1. Local workstation computer password
+  2. Smartphone PIN/password/pattern
+  3. Password manager passphrase
+  4. Cloud storage password
+  5. GPG key passphrase
+  6. SSH key passphrase
+  7. Server login password
+
+Now I’m going to put aside the questionable design decisions I’ve made here; I grant that I could just use a single encrypted password file on a USB key (with backups elsewhere), that I can plug into any computer I trust, and access my passwords. And that’s great for a fallback which I could easily implement, but it’s not exactly something I want to do on a day-to-day basis. Let’s say I simplified this system, though, so I wasn’t worrying about the cloud-hosting of the file. I’d still need to remember 2-3 passwords:
+
+  1. Local workstation computer password
+  2. Smartphone PIN/password/pattern
+  3. Password manager passphrase
+
+Yes, that’s better, and more manageable. Say, though, that I have multiple computers. Do I use the same passwords for all of them, or should I be a good security-conscious person and use different ones everywhere?
+
+I will tell you right now that in the longer list of passwords above, several of those services shared a password. I _hate_ remembering passwords, as everyone else does, so naturally, I try to remember as few as possible and put as many as possible in my password manager. It got to the point that the aforementioned shared password was one that I’ve used for a _long_ time. By long, I mean at least 10 years. Now before you start yelling at me for being careless and insecure, in my opinion, it was a pretty _good_ password. It was reasonably long, contained non-dictionary words and different character classes, and for the most part, the services that used it were not directly exposed to the internet, so you’d likely need possession of one of my devices to try to crack it.. I had no reason to expect that it was compromised.
+
+Monday last week, I typed that password into a group chat. You know how it is; it could happen to anybody. You see your computer screen is blank, and, given how unlikely it is that you’re within the 5-second grace period, you assume your computer is locked, so you sit down, and blindly type in your password while your screen wakes up. You hit Enter, switch to the window you want to be in, and get on with your day. Then your colleague leans over quietly and says “perhaps you want to delete that message you just posted,” and, confused, you take a look at the channel, and feel the ground fall out from under your chair.
+
+Not just because you remember that the password you’ve been typing from muscle-memory for a decade without really thinking about can actually be interpreted as a rather juvenile set of words that your present self would never use, but also because now you’ve got a problem: you have to relearn a new password or passwords, for the machine you type the password into about 50 times daily.
+
+Bother.
+
+Because of the nature of passwords, ones like this one have existed since before the jury came back on what a good memorable password looked like. My general passwords that I’d drop into a password manager look something like this:
+
+<pre class="p1"><span class="s1">$pyf|?u?'yB7pCNW~$y:yv;Kc*^&lt;c,%U</span></pre>
+
+<p class="p1">
+  The length I use has increased over time, as I&#8217;ve found less occasion to have to type these manually. There&#8217;s no way I want to remember a password like this, let-alone have to type it, fingers moving all over the keyboard, hitting Shift every second character. I don&#8217;t even want to contemplate having to regularly type something like this into my smartphone.
+</p>
+
+<p class="p1">
+  So after some deliberation, I took a leaf out of <a href="https://www.xkcd.com/936/">Randall Munroe&#8217;s XKCD comic</a>
+</p>
+
+<figure id="attachment_662" aria-describedby="caption-attachment-662" style="width: 740px" class="wp-caption alignnone"><img loading="lazy" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-662" title="" src="/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/password_strength.png" alt="password_strength" width="740" height="601" srcset="/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/password_strength.png 740w, /wp-content/uploads/2017/06/password_strength-300x244.png 300w" sizes="(max-width: 709px) 85vw, (max-width: 909px) 67vw, (max-width: 984px) 61vw, (max-width: 1362px) 45vw, 600px" /><figcaption id="caption-attachment-662" class="wp-caption-text">Pictured: A comic contrasting the struggle of memorising low entropy passwords like &#8220;Tr0ub4dor&3&#8221; with high entropy passwords like &#8220;correct hors battery staple&#8221; (CC-By-NC Randall Munroe, XKCD 936)</figcaption></figure>
+
+This, combined with a handy shell script, written by a past colleague, which assembles a password from several words from Linux&#8217;s _/usr/share/dict/words_ file, gave me a password that I just had to start remembering. I quickly set the password on my laptop, while storing it in my password vault accessible from my phone (which I could access with other, different passwords that I already knew and didn&#8217;t need to change right now) for the inevitable moments I forgot it.
+
+I probably had to look it up about a dozen times, and about two dozen other times I had to sit at my computer for several seconds while I (a) typed my old password before remembering it had changed, and (b) remembered which words comprised the new one, getting it wrong the first couple of times. So all it all, it&#8217;s taken almost a week, but I _think_ I&#8217;ve got it embedded in my memory now. I still want to have a backup of it somewhere safe in case I have a lapse of memory, but I&#8217;m pretty pleased.
+
+There are still a couple of services that shared my old password that I haven&#8217;t changed yet (a reason I was reluctant to publish this post yet, but decided wasn&#8217;t a big deal), which I&#8217;ll do shortly, after I&#8217;m a bit more confident in my memory. My main remaining question is whether I get ambitious and try to use _different_ passwords for each of these services. I suspect that if I leave some time between changing each one, I&#8217;ll be able to sufficiently remember them all, but it&#8217;s a bit scary to think that I could forget one of them and then be completely locked out. I will consider this further.
+
+In summary: Passwords are hard. Brains are fallible. Computers are the worst.
+
+Tl;dr: I typed my very old workstation password into a work chat room and had to go through the pain of choosing a method to generate and remember a new one, then change that password in all the places I used it.

content/posts/2017-07-02-on-being-offended.md

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+---
+title: On being offended
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-07-02T12:36:04+00:00
+url: /2017/07/02/on-being-offended/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - communication
+  - politics
+
+---
+“Offence is taken, not given.”
+
+There’s a school of thought that says that you can’t control whether or not somebody will take offence to your words or actions. In this world of “political correctness,” or, as I often prefer to call it, “not being an arsehole,” there are those that think language policing is going too far: that people should be less sensitive, get a thicker skin, and just deal with it.
+
+Examples such as “women should just accept that when I say ‘guys’ I intend it to be gender neutral.” “When I say something is ‘gay’ I don’t mean to imply that gay people are bad.”
+
+The flipside of this argument is that “intent is not magic.” Regardless of what you intend, you may hurt somebody’s feelings.
+
+My question is: where does one draw the line? I, personally, am of the opinion that if making a small change to my language will have a smaller chance of me hurting or alienating a person or community, then I’ll take it as an opportunity for self-improvement, and just make the change. I occasionally find myself in discussions, though with those who think that they should not be responsible for others’ feelings, or who will change _some_ of their language, but reach a point where they deem they’ve done “enough” to be inclusive. I want to be receptive to these perspectives, but also have a reasonable counter-argument.
+
+So I ask you, internet: what is your stance on being empathetic to those who don’t want to put in additional effort to make some people more comfortable or included (on the basis that “you can’t please everybody”), while trying to explain that in general, it’s _really not that hard_?
+
+Edit (2017-10-23): I just came across [this cartoon][1] I’d shared on Facebook a year ago about offence.
+
+ [1]: https://www.upworthy.com/this-artist-brilliantly-tackles-the-concept-of-being-offended-in-a-colorful-comic

content/posts/2017-07-03-youre-awesome-and-giving-good-compliments.md

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+---
+title: “You’re awesome!” and giving good compliments
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-07-03T13:36:03+00:00
+url: /2017/07/03/youre-awesome-and-giving-good-compliments/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - communication
+  - openness
+
+---
+_Tl;dr at the bottom._
+
+I live in a social echo chamber in which giving compliments is quite common. Often in society we don’t know how to give or accept compliments and without feeling silly or embarrassed.
+
+I receive quite a few compliments, and still struggle to receive them (showing gratitude but not shrugging them off due to embarrassment), but I try to give them fairly liberally. Recently, I received an unprompted compliment from somebody, reminding me that I was awesome. I really appreciate people taking time out of their day to say these things, and I expressed gratitude for it at the time, but I found myself thinking about it later, and I realised that I’d wanted to ask “what made you say this?” but had refrained from doing so because I don’t want to sound ungrateful or expect people to take more time to explain themselves.
+
+To be completely clear, telling people you appreciate them, or that they’re awesome, is a great start, especially in this society where recognising people’s flaws is common, but recognise their achievements is rare. The trouble with this, is that telling everybody that they’re “awesome” or similar has the potential to devalue the term through overuse. “Awesome” is an unqualified judgement that can be nice, but ultimately not very useful. I am consequently endeavouring to take things a step further when giving compliments.
+
+Recently I read [Nonviolent Communication by Marshall B Rosenberg][1]. In it, the author notes that gratitude is less useful than its justification:
+
+> The Three Components of Appreciation NVC clearly distinguishes three components in the expression of appreciation:
+> 
+>   1. the actions that have contributed to our well-being
+>   2. the particular needs of ours that have been fulfilled
+>   3. the pleasureful [sic] feelings engendered by the fulfillment [sic] of those needs
+
+(That whole chapter on “Receiving Appreciation,” and indeed the entire book, is a fascinating read.)
+
+So rather than a judgement of “you’re awesome,” perhaps instead one could say “I really appreciate this particular perspective you have on that topic; it’s great to have somebody to bond with over this opinion; it makes me happy.”
+
+This approach both gives the recipient of the complement a better understanding of what they’re doing well so they can do more of it, and as a result, in my case at least, helps me to receive and appreciate the compliment more easily, because I feel I deserve it more.
+
+I am not saying I expect anybody giving me a compliment to go to this effort. In certain situations, I might ask for clarification, but I appreciate that people are busy, and despite them taking the time to compliment me out of the blue, they may not have time to elaborate. All I’m saying is that I will endeavour to be more specific with my own compliments in future, and occasionally might respectfully request the same of others, when I deem it appropriate.
+
+A respectful request might be phrased like this: “I appreciate you saying that nice thing, but would you mind taking the time to elaborate on why you think that? It would be far more valuable to me if you could give examples as to what I said or did, why it was valuable to you, and how it made you feel, so that I can (a) appreciate you’re compliment more fully, and (b) use it as an opportunity for growth, to do more of the things that prompted the compliment.” I realise this is very verbose, and depending on your relationship with the individual, it could be abbreviated as time goes on, but I think the above is one of the clearest ways to make this request without sounding self-indulgent or unappreciative.
+
+Tl;dr: give more compliments; we don’t do this enough! In doing so, try to be specific as to what you’re complimenting, and why it’s worthwhile to you. This helps avoid judgements (which when used regularly can have diminished value). This can help the recipient receive the compliment more authentically.
+
+ [1]: http://www.amazon.com.au/Nonviolent-Communication-Language-Life-Changing-Relationships-ebook/dp/B014OISVU4

content/posts/2017-09-13-commute-delays-frustration-and-empathy.md

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+---
+title: Commute delays, frustration, and empathy
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-09-13T00:28:49+00:00
+url: /2017/09/13/commute-delays-frustration-and-empathy/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - Uncategorized
+
+---
+<i id="beginning">&#8220;Keep the doorstep clear, please,&#8221; The tram driver intones over the PA for what must be the tenth time during my commute. The doorstep remains crowded, along with the rest of the tram. Standing, back against the window, occupying as little space as I can, I crank up my music and try to relax.</i>
+
+My day starts well: I wake relatively well rested with plenty of time to shower and breakfast before leaving home. Walking to the bus while texting a friend, I&#8217;m pleased to observe that the sun has decided to briefly grace me with its presence.
+
+The bus is almost 10 minutes late. I could&#8217;ve walked to the tram instead, and maybe I&#8217;d have just caught the one I watched sail past as I disembarked my bus. How could I have known?
+
+On a route with a usual frequency of 8 minutes, that tram was the last one for over 30 minutes. There had been a route disruption and the network was still catching up.
+
+I catch the tram because, despite the extra 10 minute travel time, I can sit down and maybe get some productive work or recreational reading done, whereas the train is often so packed I can&#8217;t hold my phone in front of my face.
+
+I should have caught the train, I tell myself as I await the tram. How could I have known? Well I could have checked the live public transport app that told me there were delays. But I didn&#8217;t; can&#8217;t change that now.
+
+The sun has gone behind the clouds. My mood takes a hit. I&#8217;m frustrated. I&#8217;m going to be late. This isn&#8217;t a problem; I will still get my work done, and maybe I can get a head start once the tram arrives.
+
+The tram arrives. It&#8217;s a [single-section Z-Class][1] vehicle, rather than this route&#8217;s more regular [dual-section B-Class][2] vehicles. It&#8217;s packed, or near enough to that there are no seats. I consider awaiting the next one, but it&#8217;s another 7 minutes away, and I&#8217;m already late. I board the tram.
+
+I&#8217;m jostling for space, trying to maintain balance as the tram accelerates and decelerates by turns. There will be seats after people disembark at the train station. Wrong. By the time we reach the station, more have boarded, and I can&#8217;t move. The pressure eases off with the station passengers&#8217; departure, but still no seats. I shuffle from the aisle to the available space against the window, where I&#8217;m out of the way and reasonably well supported.
+
+So much for the sun: it has started raining. Another hit to my mood. This is Melbourne, and I&#8217;m prepared with my umbrella to handle the practical aspects of inclement weather, but my brain has other ideas.
+
+I hate everything. The current weather, my fellow passengers, the public transport provider, the tram driver and their insistent announcements about clearing the doorstep. I should&#8217;ve followed my instincts and worked from home like I was considering before getting out of bed. This is not how to set a positive tone for my day.
+
+I stop.
+
+I take a deep breath.
+
+I consider the commuters around me. They didn&#8217;t ask for this. They&#8217;re just trying to get to work, same as me. Some of them may not work somewhere as flexible as I do, where being a little late isn&#8217;t a huge deal. They&#8217;re doing the best they can.
+
+I consider the public transport control centre. Who knows what sort of disruptions they had to deal with today while I was still eating my breakfast? They&#8217;re probably frustrated, trying to get back on schedule, willing physics to bend the rules so they can get their trams where they&#8217;re needed in a timely manner. They&#8217;re doing the best they can.
+
+I consider the tram driver. They&#8217;re just doing their job. Surely they have safety precautions to which they must adhere. They&#8217;ve possibly received instructions from stressed control centre folks, and are trying to make up time that they&#8217;ve lost. They&#8217;re dealing with trams that are packed far earlier in their journey than usual, and commuters standing in awkward places because there&#8217;s nowhere else to go. They&#8217;re doing the best they can.
+
+We&#8217;re all doing the best we can, with the information we had available at the time. The world is deliberately trying to make our lives difficult.
+
+Today will be OK. My office is warm and dry, with plenty of natural light, sun or no. My to-do list is manageable. I have things to look forward to.
+
+Standing on the tram, I extract my phone from my pocket, and I [begin to write][3].
+
+ [1]: http://www.yarratrams.com.au/about-us/who-we-are/our-fleet/z-class/
+ [2]: http://www.yarratrams.com.au/about-us/who-we-are/our-fleet/b-class/
+ [3]: #beginning

content/posts/2017-12-27-the-risk-and-reward-of-difficult-conversations-with-friends.md

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+---
+title: The risk and reward of difficult conversations with friends
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2017-12-27T00:46:19+00:00
+url: /2017/12/27/the-risk-and-reward-of-difficult-conversations-with-friends/
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - communication
+  - polyamory
+
+---
+_tl;dr at the end._
+
+Sometimes, when I express a mindset that I’ve adopted, people are intrigued by it and find it a useful way of framing certain thoughts. When that happens enough times, I figure it’s time to document the mindset for wider dissemination; this is one of those.
+
+A while ago, I was considering my relationship with a close friend. I realised I was interested in exploring a non-platonic (romantic, intimate, or sexual) relationship with them. I wasn’t hung up on this idea; I basically wanted to float it and see what they thought, and I was happy to leave things as they were if the other person wasn’t interested.
+
+I hear stories sometimes of people who have tried to suggest changes (some may call them “escalations”, though I don’t like that mindset) like this to a relationship, and are concerned that just the mere suggestion of these changes could destroy the relationship. What if the friend doesn’t think of you the same after you suggest, say, that you’re interested in them romantically? What if this knowledge means they’re not comfortable continuing your existing platonic relationship, because they might think they’re teasing teasing you by staying around but denying you the relationship change you suggested, because your feelings are unrequited? What if they are offended or insulted by your suggestion, for some reason? Perhaps you suggest a sexual relationship and they think you’re just desperate for sex and trying to use them to get it?
+
+Here’s the big question: do you _really_ want to continue a relationship (be it friendship or otherwise) with somebody who would react like this to a calmly raised suggestion, when you have stated that it is a suggestion and nothing more, and that you’re happy with things as they are? If you can’t be completely honest with this person and have them be anything other than grateful for your honesty and vulnerability, what’s the point? Wouldn’t you rather know that’s the case than brush it under the carpet and never find out because you didn’t make the suggestion?
+
+So here I am, a while ago, wrestling with these thoughts about a friend: I am interested in exploring romance, intimacy, or sex with them, but I don’t want this admission to be reacted to negatively and damage our existing friendship. I thought it through, and I came out with three distinct possible outcomes:
+
+  1. My friend will be keen to explore these other things with me and we see where it goes.
+  2. My friend will respectfully tell me that they’re happy with our relationship as it is, and be grateful for my vulnerability in making this suggestion.
+  3. My friend will struggle to digest this new information, and, despite clear and empathetic discussions about it and my assertions that it’s fine if they want to keep things as they are, will think that my unrequited feelings are something they can’t deal with (maybe because they think it’d be unkind to “tempt” me by sticking around), and elect to end our friendship. If this happens, it would be a really unfortunately loss of a great long-term friendship, but I’d also be pleased to know that we were both out authentic selves and I didn’t hide my feelings out of fear.
+
+I realised that all three of these outcomes are acceptable to me. If (3) occurs, that’s a shame, but that’s life, and the fact is that I’ve known this person for years, so the likelihood of this outcome is very small. If we hadn’t been friends for long, and I made this suggestion, then (a) there’s less at stake; I have invested less in the relationship, and (b), I _still_ would be grateful to learn that the friend would react this way sooner rather than later, and we can either work through that now, or go our separate ways.
+
+I set out and wrote a big lengthy message, discussing my thought process and dancing around the message’s point. I wanted to do this in text because I can better and more articulately express my thoughts without feeling rushed, and once the message is sent, I can convince myself that there is nothing I can do until they respond, so there’s no point in dwelling on it or fretting. Hope for the best, express for the worst, but don’t waste your energy stressing about it. The message exceeded 400 words, but, halfway down, I asked, basically, if this person was interested in going on a date with me.
+
+Then I waited patiently for a response. I’ll do you the courtesy that my friend did for me, which was to get unambiguously to the point early in the message so as not to keep me in suspense: they were happy with our relationship as it was, and weren’t interested in anything romantic. They also expressed that they appreciated my honesty.
+
+And that was that. We’re still great friends; perhaps better, because I know I can feel safe having these hard conversations, and assume they’ll react empathetically and within my best interests.
+
+So seriously, if you have you have high stakes conversation you want to have with a friend, just do it! The worst that can happen is they’ll show their true colours and not react well to the conversation, in which case that is valuable information that you have learned about each other; perhaps they could do with some research on communications, or, depending on the severity of their response, some therapy; there’s no shame in that.
+
+Take the plunge!
+
+_tl;dr: If you’re worried about having a hard but respectful conversation with a friend because you’re concerned it’ll jeopardise/end the friendship, ask yourself if you really want to be friends with somebody who won’t give you the benefit of the doubt and respond compassionately and empathetically regardless of the outcome? What have you got to lose?_

content/posts/2018-01-26-diverse_events.md

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+---
+title: Improving diversity and inclusion at tech (and other) events
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2018-01-26T00:17:32+00:00
+url: /2018/01/26/diverse_events/
+timeline_notification:
+  - 1517098498
+  - 1517098498
+  - 1517098498
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+  - mattcen
+categories:
+  - activism
+  - feminism
+  - foss
+  - lgbt
+  - tech
+
+---
+Over the years I’ve attended and organised various conferences, hackathons, and other events, and it’s been interesting to observe the ways in which each of them handle (or don’t handle) diversity.
+
+This post is a collection of notes and pointers about the things I’ve noticed are some of the most important things to help increase diversity at events. When I say diversity, I’m largely referring to the diversity of the attendees at events. People from different walks of life, backgrounds, races, genders, abilities, etc.
+
+Being inclusive at our events is important. If our events only have homogeneous attendees, the things they focus on will only be relevant to those attendees, and not useful to anybody else. As it turns out, not everybody is a neurotypical able-bodied heterosexual middle-class cisgender white male. Those of us who do fit or approximate this description often aren’t aware or appreciative of the issues experienced by anybody different from ourselves.
+
+So, in no particular order, how do we improve diversity? This is by no means an exhaustive list, and there will be things I’ve missed, and perhaps some mistakes. Please check out the [references section][1] for more information. There’s also a [summary at the end][2]. (EDIT: The summary is also available as a [lightning talk][3].)
+
+## Race {#race}
+
+<b id="non_white">Be sensitive to and aware of non-white attendees</b>. Ensure you call out racism in your code of conduct, and that you consider how you can be inclusive of and do outreach to various races and indigenous communities.
+
+## Accessibility {#accessibility}
+
+<b id="venues">Have accessible venues.</b> This means ensuring that all the important areas of your venue, including common areas, theatres, bathrooms and stages (speakers can have disabilities, too, and may have lots to say about them!) are wheelchair accessible.
+
+If you think you may have people with visual or hearing disabilities at your events, <b id="signlanguage">consider a sign-language interpreter</b>, or having a <b id="hearingloop">hearing-aid loop</b>, so that these people can be involved in presentations too, and encourage presenters to be cognisant of this when making their slides (not assuming everybody can see what their slides say, for example).
+
+Additionally, speakers should <strong id="ableist">be mindful of using <a href="http://www.autistichoya.com/p/ableist-words-and-terms-to-avoid.html">ableist language</a></strong>, or abusing terms like &#8220;OCD&#8221; to mean &#8220;fussy,&#8221; for example. <b id="website">Ensure your <i>website</i></b> **is accessible** for people with screen readers etc.
+
+## Dietary requirements {#dietary}
+
+Ask for people&#8217;s dietary requirements upon registration for your event. You _could_ have a set of check-boxes for things like vegetarian, vegan, gluten free, lactose free, FODMAP, etc. but regardless of whether or not you do this, you _should_ include a <b id="dietary_freetext">dietary requirements free text field</b> for people to explain the nuances of their situation; don&#8217;t assume they&#8217;ll fit into your boxes; people are complex.
+
+## Gender {#gender}
+
+There are more than 2 genders, and we want to be inclusive of them all. That means that beyond making our events more accessible to women, we should also be inclusive of trans, non-binary, and gender-non-conforming folks. This should include, wherever possible, <b id="bathrooms">gender neutral bathrooms</b>.
+
+If your event will have name badges, and you want to give attendees input into what goes onto their name badge, then instead of permitting a &#8220;Twitter handle&#8221; text box, <b id="badge_text">have a &#8220;free badge text; use for Twitter handle, pronoun, GitHub profile, or whatever you like&#8221; field</b>. The mention of pronoun here demonstrates to attendees that you acknowledge people&#8217;s pronouns may not match how they look (a femme presenting person may not use she/her/hers pronouns), and improves inclusion.
+
+If you _need_ to ask for gender ensure you <b id="gender_field">allow a free-text field to specify their gender</b>. Again, they may not fit in your boxes. Ask, though, why you are asking for gender? Identifying diversity (e.g. how many non-men do we have at this event) is a valid reason. An argument people have made in the past is that a free text field could result in: man, male, boy, masculine, guy, woman, girl, lady, female, trans man, trans woman, unspecified, etc. This is obviously a bit tricky to aggregate for statistics, so one option is to offer an auto-complete text field that auto-completes to &#8220;female&#8221; when the user starts typing &#8220;f&#8221; or other words, for example. This _encourages_ users towards labels that make statistical aggregation easy for you, but lets them break out of your boxes if they wish, and type what they like.
+
+Additionally, &#8220;unisex T-shirts&#8221; are not unisex. Unisex shirts are not designed properly to fit people with breasts or differently shaped chests. If you&#8217;re offering T-shirts, <b id="women_tshirts">offer women&#8217;s cut shirts</b> as well as unisex/men&#8217;s cut shirts. This may also mean thinking carefully about the design you print on your shirts to <b id="shirt_design">ensure the design looks good on people with larger chests</b>, and that the design isn&#8217;t distorted etc. Consider subtle and unintentional use of <b id="gendered_language">gendered language</b>, such as words like &#8220;[guys][4].&#8221;
+
+## Names {#names}
+
+Not everybody has a first name and a last name. Some have mononyms, other cultures display the family name first. When asking for people&#8217;s names on your registration form, have a <b id="name_field">single field for somebody&#8217;s full name</b>. Don&#8217;t split it up. Ever. If you want a short or informal name (what we westerners may usually use a first name for), have an <b id="informal_name">additional field for &#8220;informal form of address&#8221;</b>, and explain this may be used for address in newsletters etc., so people have a context through which they can decide how to be addressed.
+
+## Socio-economics {#socioeconomics}
+
+Not everybody will be able to afford to come to your event. People from low socio-economic backgrounds may want to come, and have useful and interesting input and perspectives. We can&#8217;t afford to exclude these people. <b id="grants">Offer grants or sponsorships to people who can&#8217;t afford to attend</b> but wish to.
+
+## Childcare and youth programs {#childcare_youth}
+
+Some potential attendees will have children. <b id="childcare">Offer childcare or youth programs</b>. [Childcare is not hard to do][5], and demonstrates your desire to make your events family-friendly.
+
+## Newbies {#newbies}
+
+Going to a new event can be scary. Include details on your event&#8217;s website that are easy to find and explain what to expect for your event, possibly offering a contact of whom additional questions can be asked. Once at your event, <b id="contempt">ensure that newbies are overtly welcomed, and that <a href="http://blog.aurynn.com/contempt-culture">contempt culture</a></b> **is discouraged**.
+
+## Code of Conduct {#codeofconduct}
+
+**Have a code of conduct**. There are plenty of great CoCs available (some of which I&#8217;ve mentioned in below in the references) off which you could base yours. It should include consequences for breaches, and details for who to contact if people feel unsafe or need to report an incident.
+
+## Summary {#summary}
+
+  * [Race][6] 
+      * [Be sensitive to and aware of non-white attendees][7]
+  * [Accessibility][8] 
+      * [Have accessible venues][9]
+      * [Consider a sign language interpreter][10]
+      * [Consider a hearing loop for hearing aids][11]
+      * [Avoid ableist language][12]
+      * [Ensure your website is accessible to screen readers etc.][13]
+  * [Dietary requirements][14] 
+      * [Use a free text field to allow users to describe their nuanced requirements][15]
+  * [Gender][16] 
+      * [Have gender neutral bathrooms][17]
+      * [Suggest &#8220;pronoun&#8221; as a candidate for the content of free text fields on name badges][18]
+      * [Assuming you _need_ to know gender, allow free text field to specify it][19]
+      * [Offer women&#8217;s cut T-shirts][20], and [ensure your design looks good on all shirts while they&#8217;re being worn][21]
+      * [Avoid gendered language][22]
+  * [Names][23] 
+      * [Use single field for &#8220;full name&#8221; rather than split into first/last etc.][24]
+      * [Use &#8220;informal name&#8221; field if you need it][25]
+  * [Socio-economics][26] 
+      * [Offer grants or sponsorship to those who can&#8217;t otherwise afford attendance][27]
+  * [Childcare and youth programs][28] 
+      * [Offer childcare][29]
+      * [Perhaps have a youth stream of activities if applicable][29]
+  * [Newbies][30] 
+      * [Discourage contempt culture][31]
+      * [Welcome newbies, both during event promotion (on website, etc.), and at your event][31]
+  * [Code of Conduct][32] 
+      * [Look for and model a good CoC. See references below.][32]
+
+## Additional references and further reading {#references}
+
+See [Carina C. Zona&#8217;s talk called &#8220;Schemas for the real world&#8221;][33] for information on how to ask for information from users without squeezing them into boxes into which they don&#8217;t feel they fit. Check out the [Contributor Covenant][34], [Django Community Code of Conduct][35], the Hopper Fund&#8217;s [guide to improving conference diversity][36], the [Geek Feminism anti-harassment policy][37], and the [anti-harassment policy developed by the Ada Initiative][38].
+
+Regarding inclusive language, the Australian National LGBTI Health Alliance has an excellent [guide to inclusive sex and gender diverse language][39]. Feel free to extrapolate the guidelines for size, ability, education and ethnicity. The Australian Network on Disabilities also has a [guide to inclusive language][40] you might want to look at.
+
+ [1]: #references
+ [2]: #summary
+ [3]: https://youtu.be/3MDsu6iFAD0?t=8m45s
+ [4]: /guys-isnt-gender-neutral
+ [5]: http://au.okfn.org/2015/08/22/childcare-at-govhack-how-it-was-done/
+ [6]: #race
+ [7]: #non_white
+ [8]: #accessibility
+ [9]: #venues
+ [10]: #signlanguage
+ [11]: #hearingloop
+ [12]: #ableist
+ [13]: #website
+ [14]: #dietary
+ [15]: #dietary_freetext
+ [16]: #gender
+ [17]: #bathrooms
+ [18]: #badge_text
+ [19]: #gender_field
+ [20]: #women_tshirts
+ [21]: #shirt_design
+ [22]: #gendered_language
+ [23]: #names
+ [24]: #name_field
+ [25]: #informal_name
+ [26]: #socioeconomics
+ [27]: #grants
+ [28]: #childcare_youth
+ [29]: #childcare
+ [30]: #newbies
+ [31]: #contempt
+ [32]: #codeofconduct
+ [33]: http://cczona.com/speaking/talks/#schemas-for-the-real-world
+ [34]: https://contributor-covenant.org/
+ [35]: https://www.djangoproject.com/conduct/
+ [36]: http://conference.hopper.org.nz/
+ [37]: http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Conference_anti-harassment/Policy
+ [38]: http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Conference_anti-harassment
+ [39]: http://lgbtihealth.org.au/sites/default/files/Alliance%20Health%20Information%20Sheet%20Inclusive%20Language%20Guide%20on%20Intersex,%20Trans%20and%20Gender%20Diversity_0.pdf
+ [40]: https://www.and.org.au/pages/inclusive-language.html

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+---
+title: How did I get here?
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2018-05-21T00:19:53+00:00
+url: /2018/05/21/how-did-i-get-here/
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+categories:
+  - bisexuality
+  - communication
+  - lgbt
+  - polyamory
+  - queer
+  - sex
+
+---
+_Over the last few of years, I’ve undergone a lot of changes, and taken some pretty huge steps in personal development. This post is an attempt to tell the story of how this all unfolded. Some of the details are a little fuzzy, but the general narrative is sufficient._
+
+**Content note: Non-specific discussions about sex and BDSM; more detailed discussions of polyamory/non-monogamy, and bisexuality. Fairly specific mention of my realisation of bisexual/polyamorous/kinky identity and coming out. A pretty deep dive into my brain.  
+** 
+
+## Backstory
+
+As of the start of 2014, I had led what I deemed a pretty ordinary, uninteresting (not to say unfulfilled!) life. I’d gone through primary school and secondary school without many noteworthy blips, except perhaps for the one that helped me realise the self-destructive nature of secrets, and the freedom of honesty, even when it means admitting you messed up.
+
+Being involved with <a href="https://scoutsvictoria.com.au" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Scouts</a> since I was 8 taught me a lot of life skills, including teamwork, leadership, independence, event planning, and a slew of other awesome stuff. I took a break from Scouts when I turned 18.
+
+I spent 2 years studying an Advanced Diploma of Computer Science at RMIT TAFE, and then in 2008 I articulated into RMIT&#8217;s Bachelor of Computer Science. That same year, I began my first ever job, lasting 7 years, and I re-joined the Scouts as a leader to get me away from my computer screen.
+
+And for 6 years, this was basically how things stayed. I finished my degree, and my life was basically work, scouts, hanging out with a small handful of friends, and having my introvert down-time at home on the computer etc.
+
+An exception to this was that in 2012 I started attending <a href="https://linux.conf.au/" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Linux.conf.au</a> , an annual conference on Open Source software. This was where I started making a few friends in the IT space, but I didn&#8217;t generally see many of them outside of conferences, because they were from all over the world.
+
+## Catalyst
+
+And that brings us to January 23, 2014, and this tweet from a Linux.conf.au contact:<figure class="wp-block-embed-twitter wp-block-embed is-type-rich">
+
+<div class="wp-block-embed__wrapper">
+  <div class="embed-twitter">
+    <blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-width="550" data-dnt="true">
+      <p lang="en" dir="ltr">
+        Just on my way to <a href="https://twitter.com/OKFNau?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">@OKFNau</a> drinks hoping to catch up with <a href="https://twitter.com/kattekrab?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">@kattekrab</a> and <a href="https://twitter.com/bendechrai?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">@bendechrai</a> <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/opensource?src=hash&ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">#opensource</a>
+      </p>&mdash; Kathy Reid (@KathyReid) 
+      
+      <a href="https://twitter.com/KathyReid/status/426232301555425280?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">January 23, 2014</a>
+    </blockquote>
+  </div>
+</div></figure> 
+
+Not having heard of @OKFNau before, I did some digging:<figure class="wp-block-embed-twitter wp-block-embed is-type-rich">
+
+<div class="wp-block-embed__wrapper">
+  <div class="embed-twitter">
+    <blockquote class="twitter-tweet" data-width="550" data-dnt="true">
+      <p lang="en" dir="ltr">
+        All you Melb peeps doing <a href="https://twitter.com/hashtag/open?src=hash&ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">#open</a>: software, hardware, knowledge, science, art, food, whatever. Drinks. Thursday. <a href="http://t.co/uv89N5IlSx">http://t.co/uv89N5IlSx</a>
+      </p>&mdash; Open Knowledge AU (@OKFNau) 
+      
+      <a href="https://twitter.com/OKFNau/status/425430171101839360?ref_src=twsrc%5Etfw">January 21, 2014</a>
+    </blockquote>
+  </div>
+</div></figure> 
+
+This sounded right up my alley, so I went. Being shy and introverted around new people, I was relieved when a very energetic human intercepted me on entry and made me feel welcome, introducing me to many awesome people.
+
+I had a ball, and kept attending Open Knowledge events.  
+Now: I overcommit and volunteer far too much. For this, I blame my Scout leader; a fantastic person and role model with a penchant for doing too much, and whose commitment I aspired match until I realised not all adults are involved with 3 or more organisations outside their full-time job, and that&#8217;s OK!  
+It was only 6 months before I was co-running Open Knowledge events.
+
+## Realisation
+
+I&#8217;d hitherto not made time or space in my life for romantic, intimate, sexual, or otherwise non-platonic connections. I had not desperately needed or craved those types of connections. Sure, I&#8217;d been attracted to women before, but never enough to warrant overcoming the stress and anxiety of &#8220;making a move.&#8221;
+
+I think Open Knowledge was the first time that I regularly interacted with people around my age, with similar values and interests. I realised I really enjoyed that sort of connection, and thought I was finally ready to also explore different, non-platonic connections.
+
+I wasn&#8217;t necessarily attracted to anyone from&nbsp; Open Knowledge, and in any case the idea of saying as much terrified me. So I turned to online dating. &#8220;There&#8217;s no stigma against this any more,&#8221; I reasoned. After some research, I created an OkCupid account.
+
+OkCupid asked me questions that I&#8217;d never considered before:
+
+>   * What is your sexual orientation? (Straight/Gay/Bisexual)
+>   * What is your monogamy preferences? (Monogamous/Non-monogamous)
+
+I&#8217;d assumed I was straight, because I was interested in women and femme-presenting folks, and bisexuality hadn&#8217;t occurred to me; nor had non-monogamy.
+
+Brief consideration revealed that I had the capacity to be attracted to men and masc-presenting folks too. In the past I&#8217;d recognised that some men were attractive, but only in a general and objective sense, as opposed to a personal attraction to someone. I also did a little research and decided that just _assuming_ that monogamy is the right choice for everybody is a ridiculous idea. Society tells us monogamy is the norm, but it makes sense to question this, and make an informed decision either for or against monogamy; I chose the latter.
+
+Selecting &#8220;bisexual&#8221; and &#8220;non-monogamous,&#8221; I completed my sign-up, and started chatting to people.
+
+## Exploration
+
+Before long I had a couple of dates lined up, with a man and a woman. I mentioned earlier about how high school strengthened my aversion to secrets. As a result of this, I decided to come out as &#8220;possibly bisexual&#8221; to my parents. I lived with them, but was financially independent, and didn&#8217;t _really_ think they&#8217;d have a problem with this information, let alone a big enough objection that they&#8217;d do something as drastic as kick me out, like I&#8217;d heard other parents of queer people do.
+
+<blockquote class="wp-block-quote">
+  <p>
+    Hey Mum. I&#8217;ve started online dating. Why? Because I want to meet people and am bad at doing it in person! Anyway, I&#8217;ve got a couple of dates lined up. One is with a woman, and&#8230; one is with a guy.
+  </p>
+</blockquote>
+
+Their general response was along the lines of: &#8220;Oh. &#8230; OK.&#8221; which was pretty great as far as I was concerned. They&#8217;ve been really supportive!
+
+Back to that energetic person I met that first night at Open Knowledge. At some point, I&#8217;d heard them mention polyamory (a term I&#8217;d encountered in my non-monogamy research), so I told them I was exploring this idea, and they gave me heaps of references, including <a href="https://archermagazine.com.au/" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Archer Magazine</a>, <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Ethical-Slut-Practical-Relationships-Adventures/dp/1587613379" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">The Ethical Slut</a>, <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Opening-Up-Creating-Sustaining-Relationships/dp/157344295X" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Opening Up</a>, and Polyamory Victoria (<a href="https://www.facebook.com/groups/66151944865/" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">PolyVic</a>) &#8211; a group which runs regular meetups to discuss Polyamory. I did lots of reading, and joined the PolyVic community, eventually going on to co-run that as well.
+
+In addition to the above polyamory/non-monogamy books, I eventually read <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/More-Than-Two-Practical-Polyamory/dp/0991399706/" target="_blank">More Than Two</a> (that&#8217;s the book; also see [their website][1], but also see [this article as a caveat][2]), and 3 books on communication: <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com.au/Nonviolent-Communication-Language-Life-Changing-Relationships-ebook/dp/B014OISVU4" target="_blank">Nonviolent Communication</a>, <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/Crucial-Conversations-Tools-Talking-Stakes/dp/0071401946" target="_blank">Crucial Conversations</a>, and <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/Never-Split-Difference-Negotiating-Depended/dp/0062407805" target="_blank">Never Split The Difference</a>.
+
+Even if polyamory wasn&#8217;t for me, I knew the communication and introspection skills I&#8217;d learn from considering it would be universally valuable, so I had no qualms about giving it a shot, with great success!
+
+In the midst of all this, I had had relationships of varying durations and [types][3] with people of different genders, starting to explore sex, intimacy, and romance. I also started to explore parts of the BDSM scene, which, despite not spending much time in, I definitely have an interest in, and I&#8217;ve enjoyed the experimentation I&#8217;ve done in that space thus far. I&#8217;ve also started clubbing and exploring events and venues associated with the &#8220;gay scene,&#8221; which has been a little daunting, but also fun.
+
+## Conclusion
+
+I don&#8217;t currently want to go into too many details of my sex life on a public post, but suffice to say, that from 2014 to 2017, I had crammed in a lot of theoretical and practical experience around communication, introspection, non-platonic relationships, non-monogamy, the queer community, sex, kink and the alternative/hippy community (in the form of alternative lifestyle festivals).
+
+I keep an open mind, and am regularly inquisitive of the status quo or unfounded assumptions that society should be a certain way; I think this was attitude was integral to my journey.
+
+So these days, I&#8217;m still doing the endless self-development thing. I&#8217;m working better on my communication skills, and pushing my comfort zone, going to events on my own, trying to meet new people, and get better at talking to strangers, especially those who I&#8217;m interested in or attracted to. That&#8217;s hard, but looking back on how far I&#8217;ve come, I&#8217;m reassured that I might get there one day. Who knows what the future will hold for me?
+
+## References {#references}
+
+Non-monogamy Books:
+
+  * <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://archermagazine.com.au/" target="_blank">Archer Magazine</a>
+  * <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/Ethical-Slut-Practical-Relationships-Adventures/dp/1587613379" target="_blank">The Ethical Slut</a>
+  * <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/Opening-Up-Creating-Sustaining-Relationships/dp/157344295X" target="_blank">Opening Up</a>
+  * <a rel="noopener noreferrer" href="https://www.amazon.com/More-Than-Two-Practical-Polyamory/dp/0991399706/" target="_blank">More Than Two</a> ([please read this caveat][2])
+
+Communication books:
+
+  * <a href="https://www.amazon.com.au/Nonviolent-Communication-Language-Life-Changing-Relationships-ebook/dp/B014OISVU4" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Nonviolent Communication</a>
+  * <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Crucial-Conversations-Tools-Talking-Stakes/dp/0071401946" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Crucial Conversations</a>
+  * <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Never-Split-Difference-Negotiating-Depended/dp/0062407805" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">Never Split The Difference</a>
+
+Websites:
+
+  * <a href="https://www.facebook.com/groups/66151944865/" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferrer">PolyVic</a>
+  * [More Than Two][1]
+
+ [1]: https://morethantwo.com/
+ [2]: https://polyamory-metoo.com/
+ [3]: http://blog.mattcen.com/2016/09/20/do-you-have-a-partner/

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+---
+title: Failures in productivity
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2018-11-08T22:34:52+00:00
+url: /2018/11/09/failures-in-productivity/
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+---
+This post is a form of procrastination. I’m not sure of its purpose, but it feels right to write it.
+
+Possible purposes may be:
+
+  * To distract me from other work
+  * To foster some accountability
+  * To share my experiences in the hope they help others, if only be showing them they’re not alone
+  * To receive empathy from others
+  * To get feedback from others with similar experiences
+
+Whatever the case, here we go.
+
+I woke this morning before 6am. I was stressed about work. My productivity has been quite abysmal of late. For my full-time job, I’ve been getting around 1-3 hours of productivity per my 8-hour day, rather than a more ideal 4-6 hours. I’ve been struggling to focus on and be motivated by my work, and allowing myself to be distracted by social media and other non-work-related things.
+
+This is a recurring thing for me, and has followed me from previous jobs I’ve had. I go through phases where I am adequately, even incredibly, productive, but I always find that eventually I fall into bad habits again and my productivity plummets.
+
+I’ve wondered whether it’s because I don’t enjoy my work enough, or if I’m just not good enough at it or not a good fit, or because I have a disorder like ADHD that hinders my focus. This last thing is something I’ve been reluctant to entertain because I fear I’m just using it as an excuse (that said, I haven’t raised this particular possibility with my therapist), and everybody struggles with focus sometimes, right?
+
+I’ve tried various different methods of focus, including:
+
+  * A piece of software that asks me, every 15 minutes “What are you doing?!”, to allow me to more accurately track my time (with the side benefit of being able to log this time in the work time tracking system for billing clients etc.). This is less successful at holding me accountable than it used to be, but I’m better with it than without.
+  * Keeping clear lists of tasks I need to do, and prioritising them. I’ve tried paper, [Google Keep][1], Gmail’s Tasks, and currently, [Trello][2], but I also have two ticket systems for work ([Jira][3] and [osTicket][4]), as well as my email, and between all of the above, I tend to find that I have more lists than I can manage and struggle to consolidate everything into a single list that’s digestible.
+  * Removing distractions from my work laptop by closing social media and chat apps. This can help, but requires self-discipline. I’ve eschewed technical methods of _blocking_ these apps, because I’m a techy and very few of these techniques would take me more than a few seconds to disarm, so we’re back to self-discipline, which I don’t seem to have in adequate supply.
+  * Working from somewhere other than home. This has had limited success, but motivating myself to leave and go to the library, a cafe, a co-working space, or a friend’s place is often a struggle.
+
+I’m also considering things like [Pomodoro Technique][5], and [Getting Things Done (GTD)][6], the latter of which I’ve bought the book on, but not made time to read yet (ah, the irony!). In a timely event, yesterday I got an email newsletter from Trello that linked to a blog post about our [penchant for switching productivity tools][7]. It was slightly reassuring, but also a bit disheartening; I don’t want to have to keep switching tools to keep my brain engaged; I want to just find something that works and be able to stick to it.
+
+This morning I have:
+
+  * Done a little research on Pomodoro and GTD unsure if I’ll try either yet
+  * Checked social media
+  * Gotten up at 7am
+  * Showered
+  * Done a load of washing
+  * Had breakfast
+  * Cleaned the kitchen benches, sink and stove top
+  * Hung out washing to dry
+  * Cleaned my bathroom mirror
+  * Cleared and decluttered my desk (moving some stuff into stupid places where I probably won’t find it when I need it, and from where I’ll _eventually_, in the fullness of time, need to move it from to somewhere more sensible. But the key is that it’s out of my way and I feel better about having a clean)
+  * Started writing this blog post
+
+The above indicates I’ve been shocked into motivation by my fear that I’m not performing adequately, and needed some easy wins to ease my mind and get the ball rolling.
+
+So, the summary of this post is that I’m struggling with focus and self-discipline, and have done so on and off for years, unsure if it’s a disorder, insufficient passion/competency for parts of my work, or if I just need to suck it up and do the things I don’t necessarily want to do. I’m feeling inadequate and unproductive, which is a self-fulfilling prophesy, for which the only remedy I know is to just find a task and complete it in an attempt to boost my self-esteem and hope that sets me on a more positive cycle.
+
+I would prefer people don’t offer me advice without asking permission first, because I don’t respond well to this, however I _am_ interested in hearing from others who have experienced chronic failure to focus on work for a sufficient quantity of the day for their full-time jobs, and what’s worked from them. Maybe? I dunno.
+
+Brains are weird. And sometimes frustrating.
+
+Now it’s 9:33am and I’m late for work. I guess it’s time to just harden up, do some tasks and see how I feel. Here goes nothing.
+
+ [1]: https://keep.google.com/
+ [2]: https://trello.com/
+ [3]: https://www.atlassian.com/software/jira
+ [4]: https://www.osticket.com/
+ [5]: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pomodoro_Technique
+ [6]: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Getting_Things_Done
+ [7]: https://blog.trello.com/how-to-stick-with-a-productivity-method

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+---
+title: Autism assessments (part 1)
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2018-12-17T11:57:10+00:00
+url: /2018/12/17/autism-assessments/
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+categories:
+  - adhd
+  - autism
+  - mental health
+  - neurodiversity
+  - openness
+
+---
+_A few months ago, I wrote this as a comment on a Facebook post of mine. It’s easier to share with people in the form of a blog post, so here it is. I’ve also written a [follow-up to this post][1]._ 
+
+<span class=" UFICommentActorAndBody"><span><span class="UFICommentBody _1n4g">For years I&#8217;ve struggled with things like non-verbal social cues, facial expressions, tone, etc. I was aware that these were traits of autism (which isn&#8217;t to say they&#8217;re <em>only</em> present in autistic folks).</span></span></span>
+
+After seeing my psychologist for a few months, having said in my first appointment that I was concerned about this and wanted to understand better how to manage the traits regardless of whether or not autism was the cause, I eventually went to a _clinical_ psychologist at <a class="profileLink" href="https://www.theasdclinic.com.au/" target="_blank" rel="noopener">The ASD Clinic</a>. They would have charged me $1020 for an ASD assessment (which includes a 90-minute IQ test followed by a separate appointment for a 2-hour life history to discuss developmental behaviours etc., and for which it could be beneficial to have parents/guardians/others who knew the patient growing up).
+
+I spent about a month on their waiting list (after filling out the referral form on their website) just to get a call from them, and when I did and they gave me the details, I instead opted for a consultation with a clinical psychologist there ($240) to just talk things through and do a bit of a self-assessment based on the symptoms/traits they said were typical of ASD to see if I fit them. The psychologist showed me a slide-show of many common traits that can indicate autism. This included things like dysgraphia (which can manifest itself as poor handwriting, which I have; I just assumed I wasn&#8217;t trying hard enough or it was a symptom of my left-handedness), sensitivity to certain sensations like mild breezes, very high or very low pain thresholds, over-stimulation in noisy or bright environments, struggles with eye-contact, poor reading/response to social cues, etc. I have experienced most of these.
+
+I am in the fortunate position that (a) I could afford these appointments and (b) don&#8217;t need a formal assessment for legal reasons/welfare etc. I personally was happy after the consultation that I didn&#8217;t need to do a formal assessment. The outcome was that the psychologist recommended a couple of online screening tests ([RAADS-R][2] and [AQ][3] from <a class="" href="https://www.aspietests.org" target="_blank" rel="nofollow noopener">https://www.aspietests.org</a>) as a general indicator for possible ASD. These are obviously very informal, but given I was just looking for peace of mind that I was _probably_ on the spectrum to help me feel OK about identifying as such and interacting with the community in that way, it was good enough.
+
+Further, I&#8217;ve had 30 years to learn how to _cope_ with the traits I&#8217;ve been experiencing. As a result, a formal ASD assessment may not be accurate; I may manage my traits so well that I&#8217;m deemed &#8220;not autistic,&#8221; even when I might have been deemed &#8220;autistic&#8221; were I tested 20 years ago. An assessment is subjective and not black or white, even though the result is a binary yes/no outcome.
+
+So, after the consultation and online tests, I&#8217;m comfortable claiming the label &#8220;autistic&#8221; in the knowledge that it will (a) help de-stigmatise autism and (b) allow me to feel more welcome in the community where I may find better support from other like-minded people with whom I may be able to trade useful coping mechanisms and resources etc.
+
+_If this post was helpful to you, you may also benefit from checking up my [follow-up post][1]._
+
+ [1]: https://blog.mattcen.com/2021/05/30/autism-and-adhd-assessments-part-2/
+ [2]: https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=raads/index.php
+ [3]: https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=aq/index.php

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+title: Open Source, Decentralised, and Federated Social Media Alternatives
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2020-07-01T05:02:35+00:00
+url: /2020/07/01/social-media-alternatives/
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+categories:
+  - activism
+  - communication
+  - foss
+  - openness
+  - privacy
+  - security
+  - software
+  - tech
+  - transparency
+
+---
+_tl;dr: Join me in exploring some alternatives to Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, YouTube, Discord, Slack, Zoom, Skype, etc. Only through trying them out and starting to develop a critical mass will we be able to free ourselves from these giant platforms that don’t have our best interests at heart._
+
+When it comes to social media these days, we users are very definitely the _product_. We are bombarded with ads (or need to resort to ad blockers), censored for posting things that the platforms deem risky or not profitable (such as sexually explicit material or expressions about less mainstream parts of our identity), and at the same time are powerless to reliably get the platforms to remove content that is actively harmful.
+
+To mainstream social media, we’re just marketing opportunities generating ad revenue. We stay, mostly, because these platforms have the critical mass of people with whom we’d like to connect. But what if we decided to go elsewhere?
+
+OK, so I know that less mainstream or more niche platforms _don’t_ have that critical mass, and as a result are less appealing. But I’d like people to consider them nonetheless, because that’s the only way we’ll actually _get_ any sort of critical mass and have a hope of cultivating a social network on platforms where we have more freedom and agency.
+
+I’ll explain what I mean by “decentralised” and “federated”, and go into some examples of each.
+
+## What is a Federated Platform?
+
+A federated platform is one in which there is no single centralised authority or hub on which the system, platform, or network depends. The most prominent example of this is email. While most people these days have a Gmail address, we also have the option of instead using a Yahoo! or Hotmail address, or any other free or paid email service, or we could choose to host our email ourselves. (Incidentally, I personally pay for a [Fastmail][1] account because I’m the customer and not the product, and having worked for them in the past, I trust their security and values.) Regardless which email hosting provider you use, you aren’t siloed or restricted to communicating with others who use that email provider. A Gmail user can email a Yahoo! user, for example.
+
+The key takeaway here is that while there _are_ hubs through which communication and networking must occur, there are many of them, and you have a choice of which one you use, or whether you set up your own.
+
+## Federated Platforms and ActivityPub
+
+Many federated platforms support [ActivityPub][2]. Without getting into too much technical detail, in the same way the [SMTP][3] protocol allows different email services (Fastmail, Gmail, Yahoo!, Hotmail) to talk to each other, ActivityPub allows some different social media platforms to talk to each other.
+
+So, for example, if I was part of a Twitter-like social media site for people who love ponies, and a friend of mine was part of a Twitter-like social media site for people who hate pineapple on pizza, ActivityPub would still let me, on my pony-loving site, follow and interact with my friend on their pineapple-on-pizza-hating site, without each of us needing an account on each others’ community sites (which is a relief, because I’m definitely pro-pineapple-pizza!).
+
+Not only that, but if I had a _third_ friend (I know; I&#8217;m so popular!) who was on a _Facebook_-like site for people who want to try water-skiing, and both my Twitter-like site and their Facebook-like site support ActivityPub, I could even mutually follow and interact with _them_, even though the sites we&#8217;re using run different software and have different focuses. I&#8217;d see their Facebook-like posts as Tweet-like things in my timeline, and they&#8217;d see my Tweet-like things as Facebook-like posts on _their_ timeline, and we&#8217;d be able to comment on each others&#8217; updates from our respective websites. Pretty cool, huh?<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/bitmap.png?w=716" alt="Visual example of ponies/pineapple/ski explanation." class="wp-image-1471" width="630" height="529" /> <figcaption>Federated social media example</figcaption></figure> 
+
+Collectively, apps and sites that communicate with each other via ActivityPub are said to be part of the &#8220;Fediverse&#8221; (a portmanteau of &#8220;federated universe&#8221;). Each site (be it a pony site or a pineapple pizza site) is often referred to as a &#8220;server&#8221; or, more commonly, an &#8220;instance,&#8221; (as in, &#8220;an instance or server in which this particular software is installed&#8221;) such that in this context, these terms can all be used interchangeably.
+
+## Examples of Federated Platforms
+
+Alright, without any further backstory, let&#8217;s dive into some examples. Many of the federated examples I&#8217;m listing below support ActivityPub (i.e. are part of the Fediverse), which means that if you join a site that runs any of those apps, you&#8217;ll be able to talk to people on any of the others (including me)!
+
+### [Mastodon][4] (Twitter alternative)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Mastodon's mobile web interface" class="wp-image-1461" width="243" height="512" srcset="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435.png 1080w, /wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435-142x300.png 142w, /wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435-485x1024.png 485w, /wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435-768x1621.png 768w, /wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435-728x1536.png 728w, /wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220435-970x2048.png 970w" sizes="(max-width: 243px) 85vw, 243px" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Mastodon&#8217;s mobile web interface</figcaption></figure> 
+
+Mastodon is a great alternative to Twitter. It has all the paradigms you know and love, with a few different names. Tweets are called Toots, and Retweets are called Boosts. Toots on Mastodon are usually limited to 500 characters, compared to Twitter&#8217;s 280 characters, and you can also include Content Warnings on your Toots, which will hide the Toot&#8217;s contents until the reader clicks on it (after they&#8217;ve read whatever content warning you provided), and will blur out any attached media by default too. There are even various services, such as [Moa.party][5], which will let you post your Twitter Tweets to Mastodon, and vice-versa, if you wish.
+
+If you head over to [Mastodon&#8217;s home page][4] and scroll down a bit, you can find a bunch of instances you can join to become part of the Fediverse, and communicate with anyone else who&#8217;s also connected. I personally am a member of [Aus.social][6], a Mastodon server targeted at Australian folks. My friend, [Aurynn][7], has also recently launched [Cloud Island][8], which is targeted at New Zealenders, but is also open to Australians.
+
+Cloud Island is a paid-for service (minimum $8USD/month, via Patreon), which helps to support the servers running the site, and the effort required to keep it going. It also has a well-defined and enforced code of conduct, meaning it&#8217;s well-moderated, and the site is entirely hosted in New Zealand, which means it&#8217;s pretty fast to access from Australia, and isn&#8217;t hosted with a big cloud provider like Amazon&#8217;s AWS (which I think is a Good Thing). You can find more information on the [Cloud Island homepage][8], or the About section of its [Patreon page][9].
+
+There are iPhone and Android apps that support Mastodon too. On Android I use [Tusky][10]. I don&#8217;t have any recommendations for iPhone apps, but could probably hunt some down if asked.<figure class="wp-block-embed is-type-video is-provider-youtube wp-block-embed-youtube wp-embed-aspect-16-9 wp-has-aspect-ratio">
+
+<div class="wp-block-embed__wrapper">
+</div><figcaption>A 2-minute Mastodon introduction video</figcaption></figure> 
+
+### [Pixelfed][11] (Instagram alternative)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220524.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Pixelfed's mobile web interface" class="wp-image-1462" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Pixelfed&#8217;s mobile web interface</figcaption></figure> 
+
+Pixelfed is also part of the Fediverse, and has a focus on photos and pictures, in the same way that Instagram does. I&#8217;ve not played around with it a whole lot, but it looks like they&#8217;re doing some really cool stuff. Head over to their [list of instances][12] if you&#8217;d like to join up and give it a shot.
+
+### [Friendica][13] (Facebook alternative)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220730.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Friendica's mobile web interface" class="wp-image-1465" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Friendica&#8217;s mobile web interface</figcaption></figure> 
+
+If you really want something that looks like Facebook, from what I&#8217;ve seen, Friendica is your best bet. You can check out their [list of instances][14], or maybe try to come join me over on [Nerdica][15]. Friendica shows information in Facebook-style posts and comments (even if the conversation happened on another platform like Mastodon — yes, Friendica is part of the Fediverse too!), as well as supporting things like Events; one of the main things I keep Facebook around for.
+
+### [PeerTube][16] (YouTube alternative)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220603.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Peertube's mobile web interface" class="wp-image-1464" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Peertube&#8217;s mobile web interface</figcaption></figure> 
+
+If videos are your thing, give PeerTube a shot. You can filter their [list of instances][17] on various criteria, post videos, and watch other videos (from your instance or others). PeerTube has the added option that, while watching a video, you can share bits of the video (using a BitTorrent-style protocol) with anyone else also watching the same video, to reduce the load on the server hosting it! Furthermore, if you find someone who posts videos that you enjoy on PeerTube, and you&#8217;d like to subscribe to them, you can do this from _any_ platform that supports ActivityPub, and see updates on your platform of choice whenever a new video is uploaded!
+
+### [WriteFreely][18] (Blogging/writing platform)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220758.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of WriteFreely's mobile web interface" class="wp-image-1466" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of WriteFreely&#8217;s mobile web interface</figcaption></figure> 
+
+WriteFreely is a really clean-looking blogging and writing platform that&#8217;s also part of the Fediverse. This means you can subscribe to WriteFreely authors from whatever Fediverse platform you&#8217;re a member of. If you want to give WriteFreely a shot, you could try out [Write.As][19], from the folks who develop WriteFreely, or join [another instance][20] of your choice. 
+
+### [Element][21] and [Matrix][22] (Slack/Signal/IM alternative)<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-220956.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Riot's mobile app" class="wp-image-1467" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Element&#8217;s mobile app</figcaption></figure> 
+
+Element and Matrix work together to provide a chat service, both for one-on-one chats, and for group chat rooms. Matrix is the name of the server-side (the service you _connect_ to in order to interact with others), and Element is the name of the client side (the _app_ you run on your computer or phone to connect to the network). There are other alternatives to Element if you&#8217;d like to connect to Matrix with something different. [FluffyChat][23] is one of them. It&#8217;s pretty cute and friendly, but I don&#8217;t think it&#8217;s quite as featureful as Element is just yet.<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-221146.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of FluffyChat's mobile app" class="wp-image-1468" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of FluffyChat&#8217;s mobile app</figcaption></figure> 
+
+If you want to give Element/Matrix a shot, I highly recommend [creating an account on matrix.org][24] using their instance of the Element web app.
+
+Matrix are also doing some really cool stuff in an endeavour to support being decentralised, as well as federated. Check out their [peer-to-peer Matrix blog post][25] for more info.
+
+Matrix is also great as an alternative to Signal, with the advantage that all the software is completely open source (while for Signal, you&#8217;re using the Signal servers, whose source code you can&#8217;t verify), and doesn&#8217;t require sharing your phone number with contacts. It does full end-to-end encryption, and has recently released a [really simple verification tool with Element 1.6][26], meaning that if you&#8217;ve verified the Matrix identity of a friend in-person, you can be certain that you&#8217;re talking to them, no matter what device they&#8217;re talking to you from. It&#8217;s a really smooth experience!
+
+Element also supports one-on-one video and voice calling, and, if integrated with Jitsi (mentioned below), can also do group video chats.
+
+## What is a Decentralised Platform?
+
+A decentralised platform is one in which every participant is equal. There are no hubs that we need to interact through, and no contributor is more important than any other. The best example of this that I can think of is attending a social gathering in person. You might know some people there, and not know others. You find yourself in a group talking to some folks, one of whom is an astronomer. Later on in the event, you find yourself in a different group of people, chatting, and somebody mentions astronomy. At this point, you can mention that you were chatting to an astronomer earlier on, and potentially invite them over or connect them to this person later on.
+
+In this example, no one person holds all the knowledge from all the conversations in the event space, or is arbitrating and dictating who can speak with whom. Every individual at the event is a free agent who can communicate with any other person, and can share information from other interactions they&#8217;ve had. This is what I mean by decentralised.
+
+## Examples of Decentralised Platforms
+
+Decentralised platforms are still relatively new, and many of them aren&#8217;t particularly polished, but here are a few examples:
+
+### [Secure ScuttleButt][27]<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized">
+
+<img loading="lazy" src="/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/screenshot_20200630-221241.png?w=485" alt="Screenshot of Manyverse's mobile app" class="wp-image-1469" width="243" height="512" /> <figcaption>Screenshot of Manyverse&#8217;s mobile app</figcaption></figure> 
+
+Secure ScuttleButt is probably one of the more predominant platforms right now. It uses what is known as the &#8220;gossip&#8221; protocol, in the same way that I described in my example of different conversations at a social event above. I hear information from my friends, and then I can &#8220;gossip&#8221; that information to my other friends as an intermediary, without each of my friends knowing each other directly. This has the advantage that there is no single point of failure, and anybody can pass on a message from one person to another, as long as they&#8217;re connected to both of those people. The disadvantage, though, is that anything posted to the ScuttleButt network is immutable (i.e. you can&#8217;t edit or delete what you post), and, with the exception of private messages, all your posts are publicly visible. (Private messages can be passed on from one friend to another, but can only be decrypted by the intended recipient.)
+
+The other upshot of this model of not having any central servers are that you can make updates (e.g. a social media post) to your ScuttleButt journal from anywhere, even if you don&#8217;t have an internet connection at the time, and then as soon as you&#8217;re in range of a friend who also uses ScuttleButt, your devices can communicate directly (without needing to go via the internet), to share the information you&#8217;ve published, and then your friend can pass it onto others via the internet, or directly. This all happens automatically and seamlessly.
+
+Further to the above, if you _receive_ updates from your friends, your device will download all of those, and you can read them offline at your leisure. This does mean that your cache of ScuttleButt content can grow quite large (gigabytes, in some cases), and you may need to set it up to delete old content once in a while, with the additional disadvantage that you then won&#8217;t be able to pass this content onto others, or access it yourself unless you retrieve it again from a friend.
+
+To get started with ScuttleButt on your computer, I recommend downloading [Patchwork][28] and following the [ScuttleButt Getting Started][29] guide. To get started on your mobile device, give [Manyverse][30] a shot. It&#8217;s worth noting that due to how ScuttleButt works, you can&#8217;t have the same identity on both your phone and your computer, but you can easily cross-link unoffically by mentioning your phone&#8217;s identity in your computer&#8217;s profile bio, and vice-versa.
+
+## [Aether][31] (forum-style platform)
+
+I haven&#8217;t really played with Aether much yet, but it&#8217;s a platform that allows you to create and subscribe to forums on various topics. Like ScuttleButt, because it&#8217;s decentralised, you basically download all the information to which you&#8217;re given access, and then you share that with others you interact with. In order to keep the amount of information you download relatively small, the platform only allows sharing text data (though this data can contain _links_ to other media such as images elsewhere on the internet).
+
+### [IPFS][32] (Distributed world wide web)
+
+IPFS, the InterPlanetary File System, is a peer-to-peer file storage system. Their [homepage][33] likely explains how it works better than I, but in short, you and others store files you&#8217;d like to publish via IPFS, and then everybody who downloads those files becomes capable of sharing them with others.
+
+### [Briar][34] (messaging app)
+
+Briar is an Android-only messaging app that works via peer-to-peer access direct between phones, or over the internet via the [Tor][35] network. It&#8217;s not particularly polished, and doesn&#8217;t have a bunch of features yet, but is designed to be secure and private, and for basic messaging, it seems to work relatively well.
+
+### [Jitsi][36] (Video conferencing platform)
+
+Jitsi is one of the up-and-coming video platforms available these days as an alternative to Zoom, Skype, Microsoft Teams, etc. It&#8217;s completely free to create a video chat on their website [Meet.Jit.si][37], and you don&#8217;t even need an account for it! They&#8217;re also working hard on getting end-to-end encryption up-and-running, and already have a [proof-of-concept][38] working! Meanwhile, if you&#8217;re concerned that their server can decrypt your video messages, you can run your own instance of the server that you control! Jitsi can run completely in-browser, but also has desktop and mobile apps for all major platforms.
+
+### [Big Blue Button][39] (Video conferencing platform)
+
+As if having a single video conferencing alternative wasn&#8217;t enough, Big Blue Button is another one! I&#8217;ve not played with this a whole lot, but it&#8217;s also completely free, and seems to offer some more seminar-like tools that Jitsi lacks, as well as a collaborative note-taking space shared by everyone within a given meeting. Like with Jitsi, Big Blue Button can be installed on your own servers, so that you can control who has access to your data.
+
+## Summary
+
+There are so many more cool apps that I didn&#8217;t mention here. All of the ones I have mentioned are completely open source, so the code for them is completely available for anyone to read, or install on their own systems so they&#8217;re not reliant on servers controlled by anyone else.
+
+Of the services listed above, here are those that support ActivityPub and are part of the Fediverse, along with any accounts I have on them. I&#8217;m inactive on most of them except aus.social, so whichever platform you choose, that&#8217;s the best account to follow:
+
+  * Mastodon ([@mattcen@aus.social][6], [@mattcen@mastodon.sdf.org][40], [@mattcen@mastodon.social][41])
+  * PixelFed ([@mattcen@pixelfed.nz][42])
+  * Friendica ([@mattcen@nerdica.net][15])
+  * PeerTube
+  * WriteFreely ([@mattcen@write.as][43])
+
+If you&#8217;d like to make contact with me on any of the other services I&#8217;ve mentioned, here&#8217;s where you can find me:
+
+  * Matrix: [@mattcen:mattcen.com][44] 
+  * ScuttleButt: @qAAoOWTZ9ynC/huIf9TplQujL4ccNUMGvUvQLxUa9xY=.ed25519
+
+I know that switching away from our current familiar social media platforms that have all our friends on them is a big ask. I also know that some people think that the benefit of being able to easily connect with their social circle outweighs the detriments of giving your data to a big company, or of expending energy switching to a more free and liberated alternative and then trying to convince your friends to do the same so you don&#8217;t feel so alone there. I&#8217;m here to tell you that getting started on some of these platforms really isn&#8217;t that hard, and you don&#8217;t need to give up Facebook or Twitter right away. It&#8217;s easy to create a Mastodon account on [Mastodon.online][45] or [Aus.social][46], and then use that to follow friends on those or other Fediverse platforms, either from a computer or smartphone. It&#8217;s equally easy to install [Element][47] on your smartphone or access its [web int][48][e][49][rface][48] on desktop, to create an account on Matrix.org and use it to chat with friends and meet new people.
+
+All I&#8217;m asking is that you give it a chance and see how it works for you, and who knows, maybe we&#8217;ll be able to start such a trend that we create our own brand new community of pineapple-pizza-hating or pony-loving humans!
+
+So, please join me. Let&#8217;s give some of these other freedom- and privacy-respecting social media tools a chance, and see if we can build a new friend network away from the Facebooks and Twitters of the world!
+
+ [1]: https://fastmail.com
+ [2]: https://activitypub.rocks/
+ [3]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Simple_Mail_Transfer_Protocol
+ [4]: https://joinmastodon.org/
+ [5]: https://moa.party/
+ [6]: https://aus.social/@mattcen
+ [7]: https://cloudisland.nz/@aurynn
+ [8]: https://cloudisland.nz/
+ [9]: https://www.patreon.com/cloudisland
+ [10]: https://tusky.app/
+ [11]: https://pixelfed.org/
+ [12]: https://beta.joinpixelfed.org/
+ [13]: https://friendi.ca/
+ [14]: https://dir.friendica.social/servers
+ [15]: https://nerdica.net/profile/mattcen
+ [16]: https://joinpeertube.org
+ [17]: https://joinpeertube.org/instances#instances-list
+ [18]: https://writefreely.org/
+ [19]: https://write.as/
+ [20]: https://writefreely.org/instances
+ [21]: https://element.io
+ [22]: https://matrix.org
+ [23]: https://christianpauly.gitlab.io/fluffychat-website
+ [24]: https://riot.im/app/#/register
+ [25]: https://matrix.org/blog/2020/06/02/introducing-p-2-p-matrix
+ [26]: https://element.io/blog/e2e-encryption-by-default-cross-signing-is-here/
+ [27]: https://scuttlebutt.nz/
+ [28]: http://dinosaur.is/patchwork-downloader/
+ [29]: https://scuttlebutt.nz/get-started/
+ [30]: https://www.manyver.se/
+ [31]: https://getaether.net/
+ [32]: https://ipfs.io/
+ [33]: https://ipfs.io/#how
+ [34]: https://briarproject.org/
+ [35]: https://www.torproject.org/
+ [36]: https://jitsi.org
+ [37]: https://meet.jit.si/
+ [38]: https://jitsi.org/blog/e2ee/
+ [39]: https://bigbluebutton.org
+ [40]: https://mastodon.sdf.org/@mattcen
+ [41]: https://mastodon.social/@mattcen
+ [42]: https://pixelfed.nz/mattcen
+ [43]: https://write.as/mattcen/
+ [44]: https://matrix.to/#/@mattcen:mattcen.com
+ [45]: https://mastodon.online/
+ [46]: https://aus.social
+ [47]: https://element.io/get-started
+ [48]: https://riot.im/app
+ [49]: https://app.element.io/

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+---
+title: Autism and ADHD assessments (part 2)
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2021-05-30T10:05:01+00:00
+url: /2021/05/30/autism-and-adhd-assessments-part-2/
+publicize_tumblr_url:
+  - http://.tumblr.com/post/653683052200017920
+publicize_twitter_user:
+  - mattcen
+timeline_notification:
+  - 1623400737
+categories:
+  - adhd
+  - autism
+  - mental health
+  - neurodiversity
+
+---
+  
+_This post is a follow-up to [Autism Assessments (part 1)][1]._
+
+After a consultation with a clinical psychologist a bit over 2 years ago, resulting in me self-identifying as autistic, which made me feel better about my various neuro-atypical behaviours and continuing to seek support and information surrounding neurodiversity, I started to realise that autism that may not be the only way I’m neurodivergent, and I sought out additional details about how my brain might work.
+
+For years I’ve struggled with concentration and focus, except when it comes to things that I really love doing, which I can hyperfocus on for hours on end, to the point that I lose track of time and forget to eat or sleep, sometimes. I’ve never been able to reliably time-sheet my work as part of my job, because keeping track of how long I’ve spent on a task is an exercise in futility unless I bog myself down in processes enforced by technology to remind me to check in every 15 minutes with a status update.
+
+The above, and a bunch of other little things, made me start to wonder if I also had ADHD. ADHD and Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) have quite a lot in common, and many people are diagnosed with both. After speaking to a large quantity of friends who also have ADHD (some of whom also have autism), I started to wonder if this was me too.
+
+Further to this, because of Melbourne’s COVID-19-related lockdowns, I spent a lot of time at home with my partner and nobody else, to the point that I think I lost a bunch of resilience I’d built up to dealing with situations like overwhelming sensory input, to the point that, in the last 12 months, I’ve experienced what I’ve identified as at least two meltdowns, one at home, and one at a shopping centre, where I got so overwhelmed with noise, imagery, and thoughts, that I had to sit quietly for almost an hour before I could calm down enough to interact with the world again. Meltdowns are a classic autism trait.
+
+When I sought information about autism, I decided that a formal diagnosis wouldn’t be very useful for me, because even if I did end up with a positive diagnosis, I’d almost certainly be diagnosed as “low support needs” (this used to be known as “high functioning autism”, but that’s not a good term for a bunch of reasons), which would mean that the few benefits I might get from a formal diagnosis, such as government support as part of the [NDIS][2], would likely not be useful or applicable to me, so it was just as beneficial for me to self-identify as autistic and seek support in the form of therapy to help manage various autism traits.
+
+But, once I started thinking that I might also have ADHD, and after having tried all manner of mindfulness techniques, organisational processes, and other things in order to help me form some constructive routines and focus on things in my day-to-day life, none of which stuck reliably, I realised that if I do have ADHD, one of the few options that may remain available to me were to try some stimulant medication to help me focus. And the thing about stimulant medication, is that it’s not available unless you have a formal ADHD diagnosis.
+
+So, after much deliberation, I started the long, slow process of seeking a diagnosis. I started by talking to my GP (general practitioner) about this, and they referred me to a psychiatrist who could assess me for ADHD. I called this psychiatrist, and they said that they’d seen on the information my GP had sent them that I also identified as autistic, and wanted to make the point that this particular psychiatrist doesn’t have much experience with autism.
+
+I thought about this, and decided that, given ADHD and ASD are often related, and given I already identify as having the latter, seeing somebody who specialises in _both_ is probably in my best interests. A couple of friends of mine highly recommended [Dr Marged Goode][3], who specialises in both ADHD and ASD, so I booked in an appointment. Unfortunately, many clinics that do these assessments have long waiting lists, and this was no exception; I waited over 3 months for my initial appointment.
+
+Now, it’s worth mentioning at this point, as mentioned in my [initial blog post][1], that these assessments are expensive. We’re talking in the ballpark of $1,000, or a little over, for a full assessment of both ADHD and Autism; obviously this makes these inaccessible to a significant portion of the population.
+
+During my first appointment, I spent a couple of hours chatting about my experiences and history, and learning about how Marged thinks about ADHD and Autism, and how their various traits fit together, by way of a diagram she drew on a board. Afterwards, she sent me a large amount of questionnaires that I and my family needed to fill out in order to gather enough information for an assessment.
+
+The paperwork I was given included:
+
+  * [Behavior Rating Inventory of Executive Function (BRIEF-A)][4]
+  * [Brown Attention-Deficit Disorder (ADD) Scales®][5]
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.healthfocuspsychology.com.au/tools/dass-42/" target="_blank">Depression Anxiety Stress Scales (DASS)</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=raads/index.php" target="_blank">The Ritvo Autism Asperger Diagnostic Scale-Revised (RAADS-R)</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=spq/index.php" target="_blank">Sensory Perception Quotient (SPQ)</a>
+  * [(SRS™-2) Social Responsiveness Scale][6]
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://web.archive.org/web/20200817145251/https://everydayaspie.wordpress.com/2016/05/02/females-with-aspergers-syndrome-checklist-by-samantha-craft/" target="_blank">Females with Aspergers Syndrome Checklist by Samantha Craft</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=aq/index.php" target="_blank">The Autism Spectrum Quotient (AQ)</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.aspietests.org/userdetails.php?target=eq/index.php" target="_blank">The Empathy Quotient (EQ)</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.hcp.med.harvard.edu/ncs/ftpdir/adhd/18Q_ASRS_English.pdf" target="_blank">Adult ADHD Self-Report Scale (ASRS-v1.1)</a>
+  * <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://embraceasd.com/cat-q/#test" target="_blank">Camouflaging Autistic Traits Questionnaire (CAT-Q)</a>
+
+I was required to fill out all of the above questionnaires, while my partner and my parent were asked to fill out slightly altered variants of the AQ, EQ, BRIEF-A, and SRS™-2, and my parent was asked to answer a developmental history questionnaire. It took me an afternoon to answer the almost 800 multiple-choice questions, while my parent and partner had fewer than half that number of questions.
+
+Furthermore, I was asked to dig up any primary school reports for perusal. Marged said that because ADHD is present all our lives, its presence needs to be demonstrated in childhood for a positive diagnosis, and one of the ways to do this is to look at the comments (as opposed to the actual grades) on primary school reports, for things like &#8220;day dreams,&#8221; &#8220;gets distracted,&#8221; &#8220;has trouble sitting still,&#8221; &#8220;misses deadlines,&#8221; and &#8220;has great potential if only they applied themselves.&#8221; Basically, anything that suggests inattention or hyperactivity. I personally had a few tell-tale signs in my own reports.
+
+I also opted to sit an IQ test. Now, this isn&#8217;t strictly required for a diagnosis (and in many ways, IQ tests are unfit for testing one&#8217;s intelligence), but Marged pointed out that often people with autism take longer to process information, and therefore may be _perceived_ as less intelligent than they actually are, and people who _aren&#8217;t_ perceived as below average intelligence may actually be somewhat _above_ average, but being held back by their mental processing speed. All this to say, if a test were to suggest that you have a high IQ (and if you are content to believe that an IQ test is an adequate representation of your intelligence) then perhaps you can take some reassurance that if people perceive you as a bit of a slow thinker, it&#8217;s not because of your intelligence, but just because you happen to process things a little slowly. So, perhaps not a huge deal, but despite the extra $350 cost, I decided to give it a shot and see what the result was.
+
+I sat the IQ test a week after my initial appointment, and during that meeting I also handed in all the filled out paperwork from myself and my family, and booked the next available appointment, which, unfortunately, was another 2 months away. Prior to my next appointment, Marged would write up a report of her findings, that could be used as evidence of any diagnosis it revealed. The report was an optional extra (another $200) that I thought would be valuable.
+
+Then I played the waiting game, wondering whether or not I&#8217;d get the diagnosis I expected, or whether I&#8217;d find out that no, I don&#8217;t have ADHD and/or autism, and therefore have to look elsewhere for answers as to why I struggle with various aspects of life (am I &#8220;not autistic/ADHD enough&#8221;, in the same way that many people feel like they&#8217;re &#8220;not queer enough&#8221; etc.?).
+
+Eventually my appointment came around, and Marged began by putting my mind to rest, flipping to the back of the 18-page report, and read the but that said yes, I&#8217;ve been diagnosed with both ADHD and Autism. _\*Wipes brow with relief\*_. We then proceeded to walk through the report in order, so I understood what it all meant.
+
+The report detailed the results of my various tests/questionnaires, and what they suggested about me. This included graphs of the results from the answers of me and my family members, and how those results compare to each other, and those of somebody who is considered &#8220;neurotypical&#8221;. It then went on to summarise the outcomes of these results, and offer some recommendations for subsequent steps for managing my mental health, executive functioning, etc., and finished up with an appendix detailing how the questionnaires and assessments demonstrated that I fit the [DSM-5][7]&#8216;s criteria of [Autism Spectrum Disorder][8], and [ADHD][9].
+
+So, I have both ADHD and Autism. My next steps include asking my GP to refer me to a psychiatrist to hopefully try some stimulant medication to help me focus, as well as continuing to try to form solid habits of mindfulness and exercise, and learning more about my autistic/ADHD brain from peers and experts online and in-person.
+
+Feel free to reach out if you&#8217;d like more information about the process I went through, or want to talk to me about your own brain, and I&#8217;ll do what I can to respond constructively!
+
+ [1]: https://blog.mattcen.com/2018/12/17/autism-assessments/
+ [2]: https://www.ndis.gov.au/
+ [3]: http://www.goodepsychology.com.au/
+ [4]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Behavior_Rating_Inventory_of_Executive_Function
+ [5]: https://www.pearsonassessments.com/store/usassessments/en/Store/Professional-Assessments/Behavior/Attention-ADHD/Brown-Attention-Deficit-Disorder-Scales/p/100000456.html?tab=product-details
+ [6]: https://www.pearsonclinical.com.au/products/view/512
+ [7]: https://www.thedsm5.com/the-dsm-5/
+ [8]: https://a4.org.au/dsm5-asd
+ [9]: https://www.addrc.org/dsm-5-criteria-for-adhd/

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+title: Lockdown Bubble Buddies
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2021-08-19T02:28:39+00:00
+url: /2021/08/19/lockdown-bubble-buddies/
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+  - adhd
+  - autism
+  - neurodiversity
+  - polyamory
+
+---
+For the first time in my life, I’m living alone. And I’ve found that it works _surprisingly_ well for me. I was worried that I’d crave human social interactions, or that I’d go down an ADHD hyperfocus rabbit-hole and forget to eat for the entire day (resulting in an inevitable and debilitating headache or migraine). But as it turns out, as an introvert, I’m actually rather enjoying having my own space, tempered by the ability to reach out to friends online, and am able to keep my kitchen stocked with enough food that I can prepare in advance so that even if I am hyperfocussing, I can usually muster the effort to heat up some leftovers and bring them back to my desk.
+
+What I _am_ struggling with though, is the lack of _physical_ human contact. I’ve not properly cuddled a human for months, and there are times that really gets to me. Several friends and family members have offered to be my bubble buddy if I need it, which is super lovely of them and I really appreciate it. But I’ve been very reluctant to accept these offers, and have spent quite a bit of time trying to figure out why that is.
+
+I’m [not monogamous][1]. One of the reasons this works for me is because I don’t want to be somebody’s _only_ partner to the exclusion of all others. That’s a lot of pressure, especially as an introvert who often needs my own space, without the guilt of knowing that a partner needs some support and that I’m the only one they can get it from. I’ve realised this is at least part of the reason why a single “bubble buddy” is something that I’m worried about committing to. Because that means my bubble buddy would, if they were strictly following Melbourne’s lockdown rules, be excluding physical contact with others so that they could share that with me. And I _really_ don’t need that kind of pressure.
+
+Now, one could possibly make the argument that if done carefully, having a slightly larger bubble, of say 3 or 4 people who are all only in contact with each other, might still be a manageable risk from an infection perspective, but even if I did believe that were true, I’m autistic. That’s relevant here, because autistic folks often need support understanding what is and isn’t socially acceptable or expected of them, and clearly defined rules are a big help in this endeavour, so we often cling to rules like a lifeline in order to be able to function in society. As a result, the idea of _breaking_ the rules can cause a lot of anxiety because, aside from the potential societal or legal consequences, it puts us in unfamiliar territory.
+
+So, for the time being, I am going to continue to think through the whole “bubble buddy” thing, without making any commitments to anyone, as much as my body would really love it. Hopefully I can find a workable solution in the near future, or, being really optimistic, Melbourne’s 6th lockdown will ease up so I can see friends without needing to limit my contact quite so rigidly.
+
+Take care out there, folks.
+
+ [1]: https://blog.mattcen.com/2016/09/20/do-you-have-a-partner/

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+---
+title: My first long form article!
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2021-08-28T00:11:37+00:00
+url: /2021/08/28/my-first-long-form-article/
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+categories:
+  - bisexuality
+  - communication
+  - kink
+  - lgbt
+  - queer
+  - sex
+
+---
+_Depending on where you work, this content may not be safe for work._
+
+Earlier this year I wrote an article for NORMAL, a new sex education website and sex toy store. My article was about sex between people who have penises, and I’m really proud of how it turned out, and it’s just been published! Here’s an excerpt from the introduction:
+
+<blockquote class="wp-block-quote">
+  <p>
+    We can all agree that (unless you’re somewhere on the asexual spectrum), sex can be a lot of fun. But it’s also true that sometimes we all wish we had a bit of a cheat sheet &#8211; and that’s where a Normal Guide comes in handy. <br /><br />If you’re someone who has a penis, and you’re interested in trying sex with another person with a penis, this is the guide for you*. We’ll cover sexual health and how to foster comfort and safety with a partner, as well as a bunch of useful tips and techniques, so you can focus on having a great (and consensual, always) time. So let’s dive right in!
+  </p>
+</blockquote>
+
+I&#8217;d love for you to check out <a rel="noreferrer noopener" href="https://www.itsnormaljournal.com/post/the-normal-guide-to-p-on-p-sex" target="_blank">The NORMAL Guide to P-on-P Sex</a> and let me know what you think!

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+---
+title: Please follow me off Facebook
+author: mattcen
+type: post
+date: 2021-10-05T03:37:59+00:00
+url: /2021/10/05/please-follow-me-off-facebook/
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+  - mattcen
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+
+---
+In light of recent news, and following my (regrettable and hopefully brief) return to Facebook, I made the below post as a comment on a forum I’m a part of, in response an article that had been shared about [Facebook putting profit before public good][1] (also: [9 Horrifying Facts From the Facebook Whistleblower][2]).
+
+I decided that, despite a lack of polish, it was worth me re-publishing here:
+
+<hr class="wp-block-separator" />
+
+So this is a topic that’s near and dear to my heart and makes me _very_ ranty. I have [blogged][3] about alternatives to Facebook and other social media, deactivated my Facebook account for most of this year (only [briefly reactivating this week][4], and already regretting it), and been trying to encourage friends to try alternatives for literally years.
+
+What with today’s (unconfirmed) news that [Web Scrapers Claim to Possess and Sell Personal Data on 1.5 Billion Facebook Users on a Hacker Forum][5], and coverage of [Facebook’s, Instagram’s and WhatsApp’s global outage][6], more than ever I’m trying to make it as easy as possible for people to find other platforms.
+
+For events, there’s a platform called [Mobilizon][7], which has an [Australian server][8], and for a more traditional Facebook-like experience (including an events feature, there’s [Friendica][9], which has a bunch of instances around the world. I have an account on the [Nerdica][10] instance myself. Also, I think a lot of people forget that if you’ve got a Gmail or Outlook email account (or many other email providers), you’ve got a calendar, and you can invite people to events over _email_ and get RSVPs from them as soon as they click “Going”; I’d love to see this feature used more.
+
+Both Mobilizon and Friendica hook into the greater Fediverse, a network of social media platforms that use a common protocol (called ActivityPub, and described in my blog post), which interoperate so that even _between_ these platforms, you can still connect with your friends. My social media platform of choice currently is a Twitter-like one called [Mastodon][11], and I have an [account][12] on the [Aus.social][13], run by the same person who runs the aforementioned Australian Mobilizon server. And anyone with a Friendica account (for example) can follow my Mastodon profile and see my posts in a Facebook-like interface if they don’t like the Twitter-like experience of Mastodon.
+
+For chat, [I use][14] a protocol called [Matrix][15], which is most commonly used via the [Element][16] chat client. It’s more secure than Telegram (has better encryption practices), and more privacy-respecting than Signal or WhatsApp (doesn’t require you to register with a phone number). It’s also a great competitor to Slack, and a bunch of other platforms, and, with some (admittedly sometimes non-trivial) tweaking or by signing up to a commercial service like [Beeper][17] (which I acknowledge can be a little steep at US$10/month when we’re not used to paying for messaging platforms, and I think they’re still working through their initial sign-up wait-list), one can use Matrix to connect to over a dozen of your other favourite platforms, and then _uninstall_ most of those other apps from your phone.
+
+All of the platforms I’ve mentioned above and in my blog post (except, to a degree, Beeper) are free and open source, and are not run by big companies who treat users as the product and just sell our eyeballs to advertisers.
+
+The problem is that Facebook and other platforms take advantage of the fact that all our friends are on there, and so we all _keep each other on the platform_ until enough of us decide to take the leap and try something else. See [Facebook’s Secret War on Switching Costs][18] for more info on that.
+
+And I get it. I came crawling back to Facebook last week too, after 10 months of freedom from it, because I miss people (and being socially isolated is making things worse). But I’ll be leaving again soon, because after losing several hours to doom scrolling, it’s doing me more harm than good. I nonetheless think that it’s worth the effort to encourage people to try these other platforms to develop further diversity in our platform usage, and mitigate against risks like Facebook’s outage last night.
+
+One of my ideas for this is to create “interest groups” that encourage people to try a new platform. This Discourse forum is a perfect example. A decision was made to move this community here from Facebook, and because this then became _the_ place to interact with this community, people came here, and it worked. That’s a hard change to effect sometimes, but I think we have to try, because the current reality is _not_ good for anyone except the big social media companies.
+
+Thanks for reading my rant.
+
+Happy to chat with anyone who wants to know more.
+
+(Also, sorry for all the long-winded sentences, parentheticals, and footnote!)
+
+ [1]: https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2021/oct/03/former-facebook-employee-frances-haugen-identifies-herself-as-whistleblower
+ [2]: https://gizmodo.com/9-horrifying-facts-from-the-facebook-whistleblowers-new-1847791184
+ [3]: https://blog.mattcen.com/2020/07/01/social-media-alternatives/
+ [4]: https://www.facebook.com/mattcen/posts/1534490483558275
+ [5]: https://www.privacyaffairs.com/facebook-data-sold-on-hacker-forum/
+ [6]: https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2021/oct/04/facebook-instagram-and-whatsapp-hit-by-outage
+ [7]: https://mobilizon.org
+ [8]: https://aus.party/
+ [9]: https://friendi.ca/
+ [10]: https://nerdica.net
+ [11]: https://joinmastodon.org/
+ [12]: https://aus.social/@mattcen
+ [13]: https://aus.social
+ [14]: https://matrix.to/#/@mattcen:mattcen.com
+ [15]: https://matrix.org
+ [16]: https://element.io
+ [17]: https://www.beeper.com/
+ [18]: https://www.eff.org/deeplinks/2021/08/facebooks-secret-war-switching-costs

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+title: Publications
+author: mattcen
+type: page
+date: 2020-06-08T07:45:25+00:00
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+---
+## Conference talks<figure class="wp-block-table">
+
+
+|     |     |     |
+| --- | --- | --- |
+| Workplace accommodations for neurodivergent accessibility | PyConAU 2021 | [Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vT4mhZHoHtI&t=1394s) |
+| [Getting started with Docker and Swarm](https://lca2021.linux.org.au/schedule/presentation/82/) | Linux.conf.au 2021 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/lca2021-docker-talk/)  <br>[Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0aarx6LLzI) |
+| [Implementing Diverse and Inclusive Codes of Conduct](https://lca2021.linux.org.au/schedule/presentation/69/) | Linux.conf.au 2021 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/lca2021-conduct-talk/)  <br>[Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYMUZHN8OZk) |
+| Improving diversity and inclusion at tech (and other) events | Linux.conf.au 2018 | [Notes](https://mattcen.wordpress.com/2018/01/26/diverse_events/)  <br>[Video](https://youtu.be/3MDsu6iFAD0?t=525) |
+| [Preparing to be makers in a consumer-focussed world](https://web.archive.org/web/20161228183434/https://buzzconf.io/sessions/preparing-kids-makers-consumer-focussed-world/) | Buzzconf.io 2016 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/tech-engagement/)  <br>[Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zM8-c2FJIOE&list=PLuajZkkksZNiE-Ub8MnNXSrF5WH9BA4Mq&index=7&t=0s) |
+| [Intro to OpenStreetmap](https://web.archive.org/web/20180316053450/https://2015.osdc.com.au/schedule/presentation/40/) | OSDC 2015 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/intro-to-openstreetmap/)  <br>[Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8Eod_TRaOI&list=PLuajZkkksZNiE-Ub8MnNXSrF5WH9BA4Mq&index=4&t=0s) |
+| [Create customized map layers with TileMill](https://web.archive.org/web/20180316053638/https://2015.osdc.com.au/schedule/presentation/10/) | OSDC 2015 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/intro-to-tilemill/) |
+| [Scalable SOE deployments](https://web.archive.org/web/20190703204837/http://sysadmin.miniconf.org/presentations14.html#MatthewCengia) | Linux.conf.au 2014 | [Slides](https://mattcen.github.io/scalable-soe-deployments/)  <br>[Video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B22PbyiSk0Q&list=PLuajZkkksZNiE-Ub8MnNXSrF5WH9BA4Mq&index=2&t=0s) |
+
+<figcaption>Talks I&#8217;ve given at various conferences</figcaption></figure> <figure class="wp-block-table">
+
+
+|                                                                                                                                                |                    |                                                                                      |
+|------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------|--------------------|--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------|
+| [Open Knowledge Australia mini-conference](https://web.archive.org/web/20200330102051/https://lca2017.linux.org.au/schedule/index.html#monday) | Linux.conf.au 2017 | [Playlist](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuajZkkksZNiCyPCHfZYrEZJPKEkdq_MC) |
+| [Open Knowledge Australia mini-conference](https://web.archive.org/web/20200330133958/http://lca2016.linux.org.au/programme/schedule/tuesday)  | Linux.conf.au 2016 | [Playlist](https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLuajZkkksZNgMc1EwdQkmIUIXTdVjwTXB) |
+
+<figcaption>Conferences I&#8217;ve facilitated</figcaption></figure> 
+
+## Writing
+
+### Technology
+
+  * [Tech Tip: Use History Expansion To Save Time and Typing][1] – Linux Journal, 2009-12-01
+
+### Sex and relationships
+
+  * [The NORMAL Guide to P-on-P Sex][2] – NORMAL, 2021-08-25
+
+ [1]: https://www.linuxjournal.com/content/tech-tip-use-history-expansion-save-time-and-typing
+ [2]: https://www.itsnormaljournal.com/post/the-normal-guide-to-p-on-p-sex

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+---
+title: Résumé
+author: mattcen
+type: page
+date: 2020-06-11T05:51:28+00:00
+
+---
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+
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+  <a id="wp-block-file--media-be4b4b3e-d44f-45d4-a57f-896f346abf87" href="/wp-content/uploads/2022/01/mcengia_resume_2022-01-21_1558.pdf">Resume PDF</a><a href="/wp-content/uploads/2022/01/mcengia_resume_2022-01-21_1558.pdf" class="wp-block-file__button" download aria-describedby="wp-block-file--media-be4b4b3e-d44f-45d4-a57f-896f346abf87">Download</a>
+</div>
+
+# Matthew Cengia {#matthew-cengia}
+
+## They/Them/Theirs {#they-them-theirs}
+
+# Contact Details {#contact-details}<figure class="wp-block-table">
+
+
+|     |     |
+| --- | --- |
+| Email: | mattcen AT mattcen DOT com |
+| Location: | Melbourne, Australia |
+| Other: | @mattcen ([LinkedIn](https://linkedin.com/mattcen)/[GitHub](https://github.com/mattcen)/[Twitter](https://twitter.com/mattcen)) |
+
+</figure> 
+
+# Personal Profile {#personal-profile}
+
+I&#8217;m an enthusiastic polymath with a Computer Science degree and extensive sysadmin and communication skills. I crave variety, am passionate about social justice, and enjoy volunteering, teaching, and improving systems and processes.
+
+# Professional Skills {#professional-skills}
+
+  * Linux systems administration
+  * Web development
+  * Information security
+  * Project management
+  * Software release management
+  * Event planning
+  * Public speaking
+  * Community management
+  * Youth work
+  * Facilitation and moderation
+  * Diversity/Inclusion awareness
+
+# Career Summary {#career-summary}
+
+## Product Owner and Scrum Master {#product-owner-and-scrum-master}
+
+[Link Digital][2]
+
+Jan 2018 — Jun 2019
+
+  * Manage [CKAN][3] and [Drupal][4] websites for government agencies and companies
+  * Deploy initial system installation and regular security and feature upgrades to customer servers
+  * Gather requirements from clients and organise them into sprints for a team of developers
+  * Improve company culture to adapt to remote work environment by running team-building and social activities, and developing new communication guidelines
+
+## Support Engineer {#support-engineer}
+
+[Fastmail][5]
+
+Feb 2017 — Oct 2017
+
+  * Document company server infrastructure during on-boarding to assist in future employee on-boarding
+  * Triage third-level customer support issues, solving what I could and working with system engineers for everything else
+  * Debug issues with CalDAV, CardDAV, IMAP, SMTP, POP3, web UI, and other systems
+
+## Teacher {#teacher}
+
+[Invent The World][6]
+
+Jul 2016
+
+  * Run school holiday programme for children (5+ years)
+  * Teach online empathy, creative problem solving, team work, keyboard and mouse motor skills, physics, programming and other skills using computer games like [Minecraft][7], [Kerbal Space Program][8], and [Factorio][9]
+
+## Senior Systems Engineer {#senior-systems-engineer}
+
+[Cyber IT Solutions][10]
+
+Jul 2008 — Feb 2016
+
+  * Build computer systems (both hardware and software) for various customers
+  * Develop, maintain, and release-manage [PrisonPC][11]
+  * Design security measures for systems used by prison inmates
+  * Configure and manage servers for email, web hosting, file and print sharing, backup solutions, IPTV, and network-booted Linux desktops
+
+## Tutor {#tutor}
+
+[RMIT University Melbourne][12]
+
+Jul 2009 — Oct 2009
+
+  * Teach [Web Programming][13] students basic HTML, CSS, JavaScript, and PHP
+
+# Volunteer Summary {#volunteer-summary}
+
+## Deputy Chair {#deputy-chair}
+
+[GovHack Australia][14]
+
+Apr 2018 — Jun 2020
+
+  * Develop a more diverse and inclusive GovHack logo
+  * Develop the MC script and manage AV for Red Carpet Awards evening
+  * Set direction for future of GovHack, maintaining focus on open data, innovation, and improving event accessibility
+  * Liaise with government and other sponsors to develop hackathon challenges
+
+## Facilitator and moderator {#facilitator-and-moderator}
+
+[PolyVic][15]
+
+Aug 2016 — Present
+
+  * Organise and run in-person discussion groups on polyamory, consensual non-monogamy, and communication
+  * Moderate discussions on Facebook groups and manage arising conflicts
+  * Develop group guidelines and codes of conduct
+  * Train up new facilitators for our team
+
+## Scout leader and District Scout leader {#scout-leader-and-district-scout-leader}
+
+[Scouts Victoria][16]
+
+Jul 2008 — Present
+
+  * Programme and run weeknight events for Scouts 11-15 years old
+  * Organise and run weekend camps for up to 100 people
+  * Lead 40 scouts at 10-day long Australian Scout Jamborees
+  * Facilitate and co-ordinate scout discussions at the 2014 and 2015 State Youth Forum to shape the future of Scouts Victoria, managing a team of other leaders in the process
+  * Train other scout leaders
+
+## Melbourne site team lead {#melbourne-site-team-lead}
+
+[GovHack Australia][14]
+
+Mar 2016 — Nov 2019
+
+  * Run weekend-long events for over 100 participants
+  * Organise venue hire, catering, budgeting, and sponsorship
+  * Liaise with local, state, and national teams and governments
+  * Manage a team of volunteers
+  * Make event accessible to participants of diverse backgrounds and abilities
+
+## Mentor {#mentor}
+
+[CSIRO STEM Professionals in Schools][17]
+
+Aug 2014 &#8211; Dec 2014
+
+  * Develop classroom programmes to teach ICT to students
+  * Introduce programming tools such as Raspberry Pi and MIT Scratch
+  * Run classes for students to teach the above
+
+## Ambassador/Board member {#ambassador-board-member}
+
+[Open Knowledge Australia][18]
+
+Oct 2014 — Aug 2017
+
+  * Organise and run weekly tech-related meet-ups, including venue hire, catering, and advertising
+  * Teach and find other speakers to present on openness as it applies to software, hardware, data, science, research, maps, government, and communities
+  * Run GovHack and HealthHack hackathons
+  * Organise and run two full-day Open Knowledge Australia mini-conferences at [Linux.conf.au][19] in 2016 and 2017
+
+# Education and Training {#education-and-training}
+
+## Certificate IV, Frontline management {#certificate-iv-frontline-management}
+
+[Scouts Australia Institute of Training][20]
+
+2015
+
+## Bachelor of Computer Science {#bachelor-of-computer-science}
+
+[RMIT][21]
+
+2008 — 2010
+
+# Publications {#publications}
+
+<blockquote class="wp-embedded-content" data-secret="r98Zk7554v">
+  <a href="https://blog.mattcen.com/publications/">Publications</a>
+</blockquote>
+
+# Technology Proficiencies {#technology-proficiencies}
+
+## Languages {#languages}
+
+  * Bash
+  * C
+  * CSS
+  * HTML
+  * Java
+  * JavaScript
+  * PHP
+  * Perl
+  * Python
+
+## Software & Tools {#software-tools}
+
+  * AWS EC2/RDS
+  * Ansible
+  * Apache
+  * MySQL
+  * OpenLDAP
+  * Postfix
+  * Postgres
+  * Samba
+
+# References available upon request {#references-available-upon-request}
+
+ [1]: /wp-content/uploads/2022/01/mcengia_resume_2022-01-21_1558.pdf
+ [2]: https://linkdigital.com.au
+ [3]: https://ckan.org
+ [4]: https://drupal.org
+ [5]: https://www.fastmail.com
+ [6]: https://www.inventtheworld.com.au
+ [7]: http://minecraft.net/
+ [8]: https://kerbalspaceprogram.com/en/
+ [9]: https://www.factorio.com
+ [10]: http://www.cyber.com.au
+ [11]: http://prisonpc.com
+ [12]: http://www.rmit.edu.au
+ [13]: https://web.archive.org/web/20190923142733/http://www1.rmit.edu.au/courses/039990
+ [14]: https://govhack.org
+ [15]: https://www.facebook.com/groups/66151944865/
+ [16]: http://vicscouts.com.au
+ [17]: https://www.csiro.au/en/Education/Programs/STEM-Professionals-in-Schools
+ [18]: http://au.okfn.org
+ [19]: https://linux.conf.au
+ [20]: http://scouts.com.au/adult-program/scouts-australia-institute-of-training
+ [21]: https://www.rmit.edu.au